life is a miracle...

2007-08-26T10:29:00.000+08:00

sumtimes i really hate myself 4 who i am.
when i strongly believe in sometink,
i hate it when ppl cum n try 2 discourage me frm it.
becus whn i believe in it,
i wudnt give up s easily.
u cn sae tt its jz pure stubborness or strong willpower,
i wun give a heck of wt u say.
there are tings tt ppl cnt explain,
tings tt are s miraculously true or different frm what we expected.
when you believe,
it holds a certain power 2 control tings.
u might nt be able to control your fate,
bt u wud be able to control the tings tt u can control.
if u were born an idiot with a low iq,
does it means tt whn you grow up,
you wudn't be sum1 who far surpasses others?
okay lets stop toking about it..
it sorta piss me off whn ppl call others idiot or wteva shit.
they tink they are wt?
god?
then lets c wt will happen 2 them when those ppl they call names at end up 2 be their boss in future. ;)

ysd met wid deb,qing,estee n sakshi.
actually ws early bt e bus made me late.
n i reach about 5 mins late.
zzz
thn blahhblahblah lazy 2 write thn mit dear thn blahblahblah thn go hm le thn blahblahblah thn go slp.
okay cnt tok 2 much 2mr gt exam mz study le..

in tis world whr ppl are pigs n pigs are ppl. :)

2007-08-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

i wan 2 cheer him up,
i wana b strong.
i duno wt's gonna happen later..
bt i dowan 2 tink of all e negative tings,
u will be alryt,it had 2 be,it mz be.
bt despite all my efforts of trying 2 tink pos,
i broke down.
u asked me if i'll w8 4 u if anitink happens,
& if its nt,its alryt.
i cried evn b4 i cud control it.
wt do you mean?
even if it means i'll have 2 w8 a lng lng tym,
i'll still w8 4 u.
4gt about getting rid of me,
i'll stick 2 u lyk a glue!
if u're right bside me nw,
i will start hitting u lyk hell u dummy!
dn even,even tink tt way lah.
rmb wt e said b4,
tt no mata wt happens we'll nt be apart de.
n tis is one of them.
we dn evn noe if it will really happen,
n i haf faith tt u'll be okay,
no mata wt happens i'll be by ur side,
giving u e strength n courage 2 move on..<33

2007-08-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

i cnt w8 4 wednesday!!!hohoho ^^

i still care, you were my friend.
im never letting u go..i hope u're nt 2,
cus if u tink tis way,there's nth i cn do.

2007-07-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

had a sweet day ysd. ;)
hmms aft whn 2 c ms quek thn i wnt 2 find *him..
yups erm we wnt out wid e china buddies n e scenario ws lyk damn funny cans.
niwaes we walked alot until my leg suan le..
bt v happy!
2dae overslpt s din wnt 4 guitar..
gona finish reading e harry potter bk!
muahaha..
okay,nth much 2 sae le..
saw sumting damn yucky..
guess wt?haha

its spoiling my appetite,yikes!><

2007-07-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

whee!!
i guess e sun have cum out
negative tings shud be shooed away.
they're nt worth my efforts or worries.=))
okay s lets start..
2dae woke up at 9 plus,
ate zai mee fen.
hmms thn go bath blahblahblah.
duno nwadaes i bond v close 2 piggy bro leh.
wah miracle sia,
haha.
thn eat liao thn study awhile thn go tuition..
haha
wah sum1 pon 4 2 wks..
pro sia,
hahas ><
thn i cum hm play comp
thn nw blogging..
lata gona study again,
zzz
my msg bao le!
sad sia,
n i cnt call le,
pa n ama at hm..
=((
dear gt his bike!
i happy 4 him leh.
2nyt goin 2 tamp house..
yups thn tmr pei jj go buy her 2nd mth bdae gift ;))
hope u both last longlong hor!^^
oh ya,n i haven gt my present..=XX
i dun need 2 cry 2 b understood,
its a waste of tym pondering over matters.
i admit i do feel guilty.
bt i wun show it bcus
i dun wana let others be affected by it.
jz feeling glad tt u're nt angry animore,
tts all i nd 2 noe.
e rest,
i'll let nature take its course instead of getting all frustrated n troubled.
wt u tink of me or say,
i'll jz let tings go..
jz wana sae tt,
evry1 haf consience,
if u tink im having it happy nw,
i guess..its nt.

help find a way out 4 me..sumday,i will. =))

2007-07-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

hmms,
duno wt 2 sae..
tis few daes really many tings happened..
im just s tired;feeling exhausted.
suffered frm cramps 2dae.
zzz
wnt wid dad n mum go buy wood 4 my project thn came bac..
thn i jz slpt until dinnertime.
totally no appetite.
s i ws lyk,
dumped half of my food into e bin?
lols,
duno y i kp getting into loggerheads wid ppl..
mayb its sumtink 2 do wid my personality bahx.
ysd i cried bcus of sth.
i duno wt happen,
tears jz started 2 fall whn i ws in e bus.
hurt?
i duno,
i jz felt so isolated.
or isit tt im tinking 2 much?
he called lata n i felt beta afterwards.
u noe wt?
sumtyms im just so touched by his efforts 2 make me happy.<33
okay,seriously,i ws affected by sum1's words.
it hurts my pride,my feelings.
it made me feel s foolish n idiotic.
i wonder if she noes?
wt will she do if she ws reading it?
sumtyms i haf e urge 2 tell her,
bt ppl might tink e other wae round..haix.
jj told me sth.
n im jz,feeling miserable bcus of her..
zzz i tink 2 much le..
kays i'll stop toking bout tis heartbreaking tings bah.
tired le go slp liao.byes

2007-07-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

kay i shall start wid 2dae..
hmms going bonkers.
sum1 msged me tis morn n ws lyk asking her 2 go n find him.
okay..chills,nw drinking yakult..
its lyk,i jz felt it ws s unfair 2 her lah.
lyk,she expect e trust 2 b thr n yet..
i can see she rili loves him alot,
or she will not b holding on lidat.
sumtyms,u've gt 2 open ur mind n lk at e wider horizon.
out thr may be tings u've nvr expected or seen.
onli whn u r able 2 share each other's tots n feelings,
thn thr will nt b any misunderstanding.
yups,
ermx?im feeling kinda old nw..zzz
oinkoink!
haix i tink nw i hyper le..
lets tok bout ysd,
me,deb,wq,estee met in sch 4 chi project.
hmm n we were lyk rehearse through..
thn go their amaths remedial.
n thn ws reading bk n slping n playing wid my toy.
haha!=XX
thn lata wnt 2 qingqing's house,
i showed her e kungfu cow show.
damn funny larhx.
i laf until stomachpain.
n so we were late,
thn we wnt 2 orchard n thn 2 city hall.
e skating trip ws postponed..
yup thn i go hm le go play prank on him,
muahaha thn he lyk s shock lor,
thn go call me.
sry leh,nxt tym dn joke tis kinda tings le.
promise!>^
yep n 2dae ws early de lor,
bt duno wt happen i 4gt my wallet n wnt all e wae hm 2 gt it.
thn ws lyk almst late can,
i reached sch n mr bernard ws lyk standing thr WATCHING.
n i quickly hurried bac 2 class.
n so the boring lsns start n deb smsed him,
ya,lyk wt i said,
thr's no nd 2 feel embarrassed lor,
hmm..
funny ting is i took his nametag..
n thn lata whn goin 2 dnt i misplaced it.
zzz thn ws lyk finding lyk siao.
plus go toilet 2 msg.
thn we were lyk 15mins late le..
ms quek sorta yelled at us.
kay i felt super bad.
haix.
thn aft dnt we wnt 2 eng.
joel took my 2 chocs!
arh actually i wan gif *him de lor.
bt joel go take..
lata eat 2 much u explode!
hpm!
lols nvm..
we,(me,wq,jess,wz,estee n sakshi)wnt 2 his class 2 find him afterwards.
damn kua zhang lor,
lyk 1 whole grp of ppl finding him..
haha!
thn whn i entered mdm fadillah started toking about sandwiches which left me puzzled 4 about few hours lata b4 i finally gt wt she mean -.-
okay thn i pass him his nametag n ppl were laffing at another guy bt i tot it ws me.
lol very bad leh they,
say him until i duno wt 2 sae..
LOL!
hmms thn blahblahblah thn sch finish le go find him,
i cnt find him n ws lyk hiding bhind e block(wich i tot ws a safe place) n called him.
bt thn scully POOF! n tada!mr bernard appeared at e staircase n shouted at me 4 using e hp in sch..
i immediately siam lor.
n in any case,i ws wondering hw he appeared at e 2nd floor n s miraculously happened 2 lk at e bottom.zzz
yep n marcus ws visiting e sch n his juniors.
bt they gt oral.
saded.
thn dear wnt 2 do dnt,
i helped him wid e plastic bt cus nvr use e clamping ting thn gt scratches lor,
luki he nvr scold whn i tell him ^^
hmm thn i finish le go find him he doing a metal lathe.
s i wnt up n kena a grp of sec5 guys tease.
zzz thn wnt dnt rm slp n b4 i cud actually get my beauty slp,
gt tis guy used plastic playplay poke me thn say wake up.
sia lah make me feel v weird n outta place thr..
lol thn aft tt go buy bbt thn go hm le.
btw 2dae dear very gd leh,
he help 1 lao gonggong cross e road.
thn ryt,
whn we lyk w8ting away i saw e lao gonggong am chio.wah cute sia!
lols ><
thn aft tt dear do another gd deed,
he go make space 4 1 lao popo.bt e lao popo dowan.
i lyk kena shock by his gd deeds lor,
nt tt he doesnt does tt evrydae bt its lyk,
wah he rili haoxin ren leh!
thn scully e sky gt alot of birds n rainbow cum out..-.-
wahaha!
oh ya,u haven ask me wt my toy name called.
tmr i'll tell u lor,
hehe...
dear 2dae very tired leh,
s he call me le thn go slp liao.
gd nite,swit dreams!<33
i feel lyk squeezing e air out of u;u shall b my pancake!!! ^^ <33

2007-06-30T13:31:00.000+08:00

hmms wnt 4 cross country..

well as usual i ws late.

tried 2 make e xtra effort 2 cum early bt e stupid bus took almst 15mins to arrive n e train had2 w8 4 7 mins.

haix..

s late again,

n deb ws lyk quite angry.

yups hmm thn i promised 2 treat her drink ;)

we practically ran all e wae thr.

nxt deb ws nt feeling well.

s she sat down n rested.

her whole face ws lyk filled with sweat can.

haix,

oh ya mummy n daddy came 2dae!

n mum ran in 2nd despite nt feeling well,

im s proud of her!

jz hope she din make her condition worse.

din wnt wid him cus ws pei e rest go eat.

i felt sorta bad,

cus actually tmr wana go out bt i gt tuition..

thn mon im going wid e rest again..

s wid deb,wq,wl,jess

we reach white sands n ate at e food court.

thn wnt 2 buy e octopuses!

damn cute sia,

hahas

i felt s useless ysd.

duno,

bt i jz felt lyk..

i cudnt do anith..

haix,, :((

missing u;;

2007-06-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

ysd wnt out wid dear go watch movie
thn cum sch take shorts le go tm thr top up his card.. thn aft tt go his house go change..

arh his mummy thr!!!

i supersuper paiseh lor.

hahas dare nt enter de.

thn hor aft sum tym whn enter i sit thr lyk a kuku idiot -.-

hmms thn change le we go liao lor.

hw 2 sae arh..

dear ws wearing tis shirt..

quite nice lah,bt make him lk abit abeng,

hehe esp whn he nt smiling.

SCARY!

thn we go tm le we walkwalk arnd thr.

dear gave me keychain bt i lost it.

felt s bad lor,

in e end e funny ting is tt,

he ALSO lost it!

wahahas ><

lol thn we take train go bugis.

dear sae he gt a feeling we'll c anting n yan ming thr bt in e end nvr..

thn we go buy ticket le thn walk arnd bugis lor.

hmms thn aft tt go buy popcorn n drink thn go c show le.

btw,we're watching e fantastic(incredible) 4..zzz

luki ysd no nd go sch do e dnt project,

yay!!!

thn aft tt we wnt bac 2 tamp,

thn dear s paiseh duno 4 wt..

haix i duno wt 2 do oso.

niwaes aft tt he go hm le thn i go find JJ!

thn jj wan 2 buy sth 4 her laogong.

thn we walkwalkwalk until i 4gt e time n papa call me.

thn we quickly go bac.

lol pa cfm starve until lyk siao.

thn whn she toking on e hp wid her dardar i siaosiao de lor

shouting craps sia.

thn aft tt pa cum jj go hm thn we go eat..

thn wnt bac tamp house mumy goin bac 2 agong house thn i folo her lor.

thn go hm he call thn aft tt i go slp le..

happy 1 mth in advance!><

silver surfer?lol in e show he lked blue..zzz

btw thursday i wnt out wid deb they all,

s nvr go sch find him lor.

read his blog n c wt he posted tt dae.

muahahaha! evil >.-

e pics we took..

hmms lst bt nt least,

2dae gt dnt ting n i woke up at 10!

siao loh im supposed 2 reach cityhall at 11 n i still wake up s late.

in e end reach 19 mins late wich means $19 fine!

zzzz

thn lata ms quek brought us 2 buy e woods.

thn our wood along turned out 2 cost $30 loh

siao sia,

thn ms quek paid 4 us..

wang sui!!!

lols

thn aft tt we go 2 rafflescity

thn ms quek go order harry potter bk.

n e guys wnt bac 2 tamp

s me n deb go e food court thr eat.

thn aft tt we walkedwalked around thn go bac le lor.

our theory is correct lor!

hahas thn we toked bout our personal stuffs n all tt.

hmms jz cn sae tt lks r nt all bt its e heart bt matters.

yups.

nw my cousins n aunt r ovr le..

gtg play liao

bb!!!

close my eyes n wish..,tt tis world ws perfect.not.

2007-06-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yo~

Guess hu am i...?
Hahax...bet u will know...( I noe i am lame...XD )
DarDar todae go do project...in de morning cant believe she can wake up...lols
but in de end still nvm la can wake up kool enough le...XD
Then she Met up wif debbie...then to de estee hse...got bug collection!!! she so scare lor...
haiz...as usually tio shocked...watch show(Bring it on!)...

Go eat after tt wif Debbie @ TM...eat tako pachi & ice cream( Sounds lik " I scream " =.= )
when to find papa hoping to fix her hp...ends up didnt...she so sad lor...>< makes mi wanna cry...
Speaking of crying she todae watch de condor heros until cry lor...( not there to be wif her... )...
Dar Dar lazy to write post so help her write

<3....................LOVE U DAR DAR....................<3

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From, Nick Lao Gong...<3

2007-06-07T08:46:00.001+08:00

wellwell,nw's slacking at hm lyk a pig le..
wnt 2 eat wid pa n piggy bro in e morning..
bad news!
my hp die liao!!!
arhhhh cnt imagine hw lng i cn cope w/o hp until pa decides to go n repair..
feeling saded.
haix nvm..
hmms goin out wid deb they all on one of e sats again.
duno if dad will allow..
bt i will try my best 2 convince him!
hehheh..
oh ya,
ysd jj wnt 2 c *his mum n cousins.
lata called me n told me bout them..
dun tink 2 much lahx.
as usual,tink pos!
thn pei dear go cut his hair..
y he s reluctant whn i wan pei ta sia..
n hor,ur hair is nice loh,
DUN TINK 2 MUCH LE!
hahs..
tuesday gt guitar party n i gt soaking wet.
evrytink ws lyk riot loh.
thn aft tt go surfing in rm n i slp thr.
caught cold lata -.-
n SUM1 suan me cans.
make until i paiseh walk out of guitar rm dowan 2 go bac in liao.
took manymany pics.
thn e food whr gone s fast lah.
luki tchr ask jj 2 kp sum 4 e seniors.
if nt they cum dn nd eat liao.
n aft e whole ting finished,
jj cried.
made me feel s sad 2..
bt i told myself 2 b strong whn facing e world,
s no tears,hehheh.
hmms dear asked me if i free on 15..
gonna nd alot of convincing.
bt i rili wan 2 go lor.
haix c 1st bah..
lata gona go sch find him n jj n her laogong le..
byes!!!

lalalas~

2007-06-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

o1o6o7..
i'll nvr 4gt tis dae..<3
ws sitting at e rock looking at e sea wid dear.
its a beautiful n starry nyt =)
n thn came my request!
arh PAISEH!!! ><

thn morning wnt 2 sch..
suppose 2 reach at 10.30 n i reached at 11.30..
kena scolding lyk siao.
thn wnt find dear n jj n cy

wnt 2 qiang sheng's chalet..
well i took a liking 2 his niece..
damn cute lor,
thn played bubbles n jumping wid her?!?!
CHILDISH!
lyk sum1 lor.
lols =X

ysd chat on phone wid dear until v late.
n i ws lyk half in lala land liao..zzzzz
in e end recorded his voice b4 goin 2 slp..
hahaha!

thn morn whn 4 breakfast wid parents..
aft tt cum hm eat lunch thn prepare go out liao.
pa treat all of us.
thn we wnt 2 suntec walkwalk,
thn go 2 raffles thr gt e restaurant 2 eat.
e food v yummy lor.
lols

thn nw toking on9 wid dear..
e camcam v fun 2 use sia.
miting him 2mr leh,
cnt w8!
n btw,
2mr is piggy bro's bdae n dear's mum bdae oso leh.

hmms nth 2 sae le,
byes =)

love's sweet beginning.. ;)

2007-05-31T12:17:00.000+08:00

well tings have changed 4 e beta..
i've gt tis wonderful feeling in my hart nw..
lks lyk a huge load haf been lifted le..
haven gt much tings 2 tok about nw,
my 1st priority shall be to study b4 i play;
n im gona jiayous!
gona chiong studies lata le.
wahahas

love's lyk a sweet nectar which melts in ur hart.<33

2007-05-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

AWWW..
s sweet.
w bloggin bt e whole ting disappeared whn i clicked e wrng button.
s sry guys.
lol
another day bahx.
zzzz tired le.
byes ;)

sarang hae yo.=))

2007-05-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

whn i gt bac my results,
i ws lyk.omg,wt's happened 2 u.
whr's thr competitive spirit u used 2 haf?
whr's tt courage u had 2 face up 2 obstacles?
whr's tt strength 2 strive 4 e best?
whr's ur aim?
whr exactly is e old u?
u've changed.changed s much tt e world seemed 2 b revolving evrydae w/o u knowing.
wt haf u done,haf u made an effort?
no.
haix,u've nt oni let urself down,bt ur parent's expectation of u.
its nt as if u're stupid or incapable 2 doing it.
well,b4 i get 2 emo.
i failed 3 subs in total.
sort of fedup wid myself nw.
all e empty promises u made 2 urself.
get a move on!
arh!

ysd's tingy shall b kpt a secret. ;)

2dae came late as usual.
n jz nice i missed e attire check.
yeah!
hmms thn lessons talks blahblah until our free tym.
thn cum plae uno.
i won 2 tyms!lol bian tai
thn aft sch whn 2 e dnt wrkshop n rate ppl's file.
i rate until i v sian liao
thn go nap.
thn lata tcher call us prepare go liao.
thn go canteen buy food & in e meantym sneak peek.
hehe.
thn in e end,
e funny ting ws tt it ws nt a bus fetching us thr,
bt a van!
lol thn we all squeezed inside.
i ws eating tuna spread n inside e van gt sign put no eating.
s i bend down 2 eat.
weird scenario =.=
deb oso did sm ting.
wahahas
thn during e talk which is s damn boring,
i feel aslp.
n debdeb go take my pic.
u piggy gerl!
rah!
lols
ms quek knew i ws slping cus gt e redred mark on my face.
paiseh leh,hahas
thn we go eat n i ate 2 plates of noodle.
i WAS starving kay.
jinghan evn worse,
4 plates.
n deb ate an astonishing amount of..
4 fishballs n 1carrot cake n 1creampuff!
hahaha
thn lata finish liao s happy.
i called him n ms quek go sae
calling who?ur bf arh.
n every1 ohhh =.=
LOL
felt v bad leh made him w8 6 hrs.
arh srysry.
thn go hm n here m i

i seriously duno wt 2 sae,
isit coincidence of pure luck huh?
its damn weird loh.
arh,mayb i tinking 2 much.
niwaes,
i wish u gd luk bah
cnt blif u're s blessed.
=.=
byes
gd tings wun lst in UR hands 4 lng..

2007-05-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

oh my god.
i so damn love tis skin guys.^^
yeah finally thought i shud go 4 a change.
e previous blogskin ws s gloomy..
hahas i love songs sung by ppl with powerful vocals lyk tis,
sung by mariah carey n whitney houston.
when u blif.=D

okay wnt out wid him n gerls 2dae.
met him aft sch thn walked 2 his house 2 put e guitar.
thn took bus 2 e starbucks thr n go toilet change clothes.
thn wnt 2 mrt station 2 meet jas n siying.
n guess wt?
they jz left their house.
n we were already,
late.
s we w8ted until they came.
thn wnt 2 eat.
damn funny lah.
every1 ws nervous.
cn feel e tension thr.
lols thn we tried toking sum lame tings.
thn at kfc,saw sum dunmanites.
as usual, i ate cheese fries.
i choose 2 stick 2 tings i lyk.
n tt explains y i took s lng 2 change e blogskin n song guys.
hahas.

thn we wnt walk around tamp mall,
thn century square 2 take neoprints.
he didnt wan 2 take.
s oni 3 of us.
thn he decided 2 go buy e big version of e pen.
cus hide frm sum1.
bt in e end no use.
cus he still msg me sae he saw sum1.
hahs ;)
e pic sux,
s im oni gona post 1 pic tts my fav.

heheh..

okay thn we decided 2 go east point.
go e bkshop thr thn i ws engrossed in e stupid palm reading bk.
kpt lking at my hand until he said,
u lyk it go buy tis bk loh.
okay tt made me stop acting lyk an idiot.
thn we lked at e disc blahblah.
thn walked until nth 2 do liao thn go buy bubbletea n sit.
he s cute tt tym loh.
duno we toking wt thn scully he sae
"hor laopo?"
wah i panic n turn 2 my frenz 2 c if they gt hear nt.
luki nv.lols
thn scully mummy came leh.
appear frm e air n gimme shock.
she kp giving me n him weird looks.
thn whn i cum hm she ask hu tt guy.
i playplay sae huh?which guy?i duno him.
LOL.
=.=
thn i siaosiao go sing whn ppl walking pass us.
duno wt happen le.

thn aft tt we decided 2 go downtown.
n e stupid video ting!
omg its s pervert.
dn dirty my mind leh.
thn go walkwalk
n jas had 2 go le..
saded.
oh ya,
i realise tt evrywhr we walk hor,
e dvd shop all show e sm show.
jz follow law.
lols
gt 1 part s gay cans.
she is me n he is molesting my body!
wth.
had a great laf lah.
thn i had a carving 4 fries again.
thn go buy loh.
n evrytym ask him eat,
dowan.
in e end i go sae,
y leh?
u wan jian fei arh?
hahas s thin le still jian fei 4 wt.
thn aft on e bus he lk at my fries n sae,
u leh?jian fei arh?
dots.he gd suan me le loh.lol
thn we wnt on e train n i started taking his pic using his hp.
walao thn he wan take me bac i go hide.

hmms tmr gona go out wid deb they all.
i cnt wear e shorts cus 2dae wear le.
S WT SHUD I WEAR?!
lata gona empty e cupboard.
okay tts all 4 2dae,
dad nagging bhind my back liao.
byebye.

its been a lng while since i felt tis happy.=D

2007-05-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

ohhh..

i love tis songs guys.=D

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full
I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles (miracles)
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my hear
tAnd what I believe in
But somehowI will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

okay,im sort of crazy bout disney songs nw.lols
hmms 2 many tings 2 post about liao.
duno whr 2 begin..
okay,1stly fri ws a riot
it started wid a plan 2 cycle.
n 8 of us,bt oni 7 bikes.
thn jiajing kena ride loh.
thn aft tt,
i lagged bhind.
haix felt s idiot.
its lyk,
crap lah.
made him w8 wid me.
thn jz bcus i cycling on tt path,
he purposely made wae 4 me.
moving onto e grass patch.
i kena distracted n scully e bike swerved n i fell down.
><
urgh.
gt cut on my leg.
thn lata bcus of tt ppl haf 2 ride me.
it ws evn worse lah.
cus e bike ws goin damn fast.
n rubbed against my skin.
s whn we finally reached sch,
my knee scratch n both sides of leg at e wheel thr kena burn.
n he kp asking if i ws all ryt.
felt s bad,

boy,i do feel my feelings getting stronger 4 u.
bcus u care,u do..

whn 2 tamp house ysd.
chatted wid him until 10.35
thn watched the eye 2.
e plot v weird loh.
if i ws tt gerl,
i seriously wudnt mind.
nt e part of seeing ghosts.
bt e part whr e guy's wife wud recarnate 2 b tt lady's child.
ya..
thn aft the show,
i cudnt slp.
inside,i ws tinking of s many tings.
no matter hw much i tried 2 kp up wid them.
they ended up slipping frm my fingers.
leaving me ever s disappionted..

if nt 4 u standing by my side n giving me the courage 2 move on,
whr wud i b by nw..

i woke up in e whee hours of morning.
ermx 2am?
n found tt mum ws missing frm e rm.
turned out tt she ws having a blocked nose.
n when outside 2 slp whr there is no aircon.
n i messed up her hair b4 goin back 2 e rm 2 slp.
=XX
later at bout 10sth thn woke up again.
packed e bed blahblah.
thn wnt out 2 eat.
ate kway chap.
v lng nv eat le.
thn wnt walkwalk.
n dad bought a book 4 me.
ps.i love u
haha s happy..
i jz asked 4 tt bk n i got it!
yay i gonna finish reading e bk by tmr..
thn s funny piggy boy asked pa 2 buy 10 correction tape
which he really did =.=
sumore 1 correction tape pack gt 2 inside.
s in total,is 20 correction tape.
haha.'hilarious'
zzzzzz
thn wnt bac hm n he called.
thn chatchat until e lift.
stupid lift.
e phone hung up halfwae.
thn wnt hm wanted 2 call him de.
bt mummy sae dowan.
n since its mother's day,
well..

thn lata watched huan zhu gege.
i rili lyk xiaoyanzi's char lah.
daring 2 sae wt she tinks n fight 4 it.
if she's unhappy,
she shows it.
if she's angry,
she vent.
sumtink tt many dn haf e courage 2 do in frnt of ppl..
lata helped in hanging e curtains which is a bad idea.
my leg's injury haven recovered.
still gt tt puss oozing out.
n at tyms,
whn it s happens tt my muscle stretch,
i seriously cnt walk bt limp.
mum said i shud go 2 a clinic if tings doesnt gt better tmr.
bt im goin out aniwae.
thn went out 2 eat 4 lunch oso.
tis tym we ate e wanton noodle.
its nice loh.
we walked all e wae 2 e kopitiam bhind.
bout 1 yr nv go le i tink.
piggy bro ate till he cried cus e chilli 2 hot 4 him
bt he refuse 2 admit loh.
i kpt laffing.
lol

thn wnt bac hm n bath n pack my clothings.
thn took cab bac.
watched tv again.
thn wnt out eat 4 dinner.
tis tym we ate char kway teow.
its nice loh.
bt i picked out all e clams.
yikes.
thn wnt hm bath again n wnt on9.
nth much 2 tok bout.
bt i ws glad my mailbox din flood.
i hate opening 20 over mails.

tis few daes im feeling more at ease liao.
been listening 2 songs
i realise we both nd tym.
2 4gt n 2 accept.
im feel unsure of myself at tyms.
& if u existed in my heart,
i'd swear tt wud b e tym whn thr's oni u inside.
u, and u alone.
i'll nv use sum1 u 4gt another.
tts s nt me,
trust me.

lata he call loh.
n jz nice,
whn i ws toking 2 him,
jas n siying had 2 call at e sm tym.
n e hp almost hanged.
lol..
well gona mit them tmr n he's cuming along.
jz hope tings dn get 2 awkward bah.
hahas,
n arh!!!
dn call me da ren!
lyk s old cans.
n tt dp.
delete it loh!
><
i s feel lyk strangling u lah.
sum ppl cn c de cans.
dots.

loves,
amanda.

ps.i love u.=D

2007-05-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

tis few daes alot of craps.
exams,
studies,
floodfloodflood.
arh i gona suffocate liao.

i finally touched my guitar aft a few months..
well it sounds stupid bt nw im crazy bout it again.
haix thks 2 nicholas lah.
plaeplaeplaeplae until i kena influenced.
lol
thn sumore frm ysd 2 2dae still plae e sm song until jiajing ask him change.
hahas.

social studies ppr,
die liao..
i duno hw 2 do loh.
my mind scully empty de..
haix.

thn aft sch go find him,
thn wnt eat.
felt weird,,
1 gerls n 3 guys.
=.=
weisi n her fren upstairs.
luki lata jiajing cum.
thn plaeplaeplae liao,
tcher cum scold.
go n study!
lols

thn timothy plaed e piano.
plae until e an jing song i scully bcum emo.
thn we helped pack e tables n sweep e floor.
well it seems no 1 wanted us 2 help,
n we were lyk willing parties.
><

thn wsnt feeling tt well aft tt.
felt sick.
nt physically bt emotionally.
duno wt's cuming ovr me.
thn lata wnt bac 2 4g,
plaed guitar.
n i go compose e notes 4 fei ni mo shu.
nth 2 do le.
nwadaes feeling v disturbed..
s drank lots n lots of cold drink plus plae guitar.
helps me relax.
lol
n e stupid name timothy came up wid,
ah ming ge!
wth..
zzzz

with love,
mirage

blinded by confusions,i felt my way along e lng path,searching 4 my true love.=))

2007-04-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

ysd ws s tiring..
wnt 2 e family activity tingy.
wellwell,
i ws s reluctant 2 go thr.
n i damn regreted letting my hair down.
sians e heat ws unbearable.
n sumore is nyt liao lohx.
yepyep,
thn wnt 2 tamp house.
we had buffet at e place.
e food ws nice!><
hmms thn called kor.
s late le lohx.
n his hp s laggy.
=.=
tok halfwae scully hung up.
lols
thn in e end watched movie wid daddy.
e name's called mo gong or sth.
bout wartime bahx.
n gt 1 show,
brotherhood i tink.
its s touching lah.
& i duno wt's cuming wid me nwadaes.
felt rude.
bt guess tis tym im supposed 2 b tis wae bahx.
i dn wana do sth tt i dun feel lyk doing.
i dowan 2 b a gd gerl.
i dowan 2 b kind 2 u.
i dn feel lyk toking 2 u.
s jz let me b nasty kae?
jz luki i din scold u.
haix..
4gt it.
2dae morn whn out 2 eat wid dad,mum n piggy bro.
thn mum's food gt nymph cans.
i wan complain de loh.
bt mummy dowan.
spoil my appetite.
thn lata dad cooked.
mz admit tt he cooks sum food is damn nice.
bt whn he tries 2 cum out wid sth new,
well ermx..
he stil has 2 improve alot.
& 2dae,
surprisesurprise,
we ate peppery porridge.
wahahas!xD
n my egg ws lyk
half cooked.
still gt e transparent tingy loh.
ate it aniwae,
luki no stomachache.
thn rushed hm 4 tuition.
i kena locked outsid my house cus grandparents aunt n maid all out.
i ws s pissed off lah.
called my dad.
thn they took cab hm.
mum sae nxt tym mz gime key.
nw thn u sae?
i've been telling u tis 4 s many tyms liao lah.
rah!
by thn i late 4 45 mins liao.
thn dad sae dun nd 2 go.
yay!!!
hahas no boring lessons.
thn watched casino royalle.
e guy's s idiot lah.
bomb himself.
LOL.
n i drank s much.
coffee wid vanila,
7 up,
yakult(ps duno hw 2 spell)
n again coffee.
water!
bloated liaox.
thn aunt came wid uncle.
aunt sae i tanned until v obvious liao.
arh!
bt sum ppl tan until v nice loh.
esp those instructors frm temasek poly.
i love their tan!
XD
tis few daes e weather damn hot.
stand out side awhile cn feel e heat le.
fri kena sunburn lah.
i scare liao loh.
nw my skin is lyk,
hand tan,
neck tan,
face lighter abit,
body light.
wth.

lalala i love tis song,
放心i'm ok go away
忍住我的泪
记得你曾经爱我对不对
所以i'm ok 无所谓
该向你感谢
在我心底那玫瑰曾开得很美
赶在今天阳光很灿烂
特地穿上你送我的白色球鞋
只是还不习惯街道那么宽
想躲进你口袋找温暖
从前是场重感冒
要靠勇气才医得好
虽然明天走不到
恋爱要重考我还是会笑
la……
现在我迈开大步走
一直向前走不许再回头
经过了你的爱
我的回忆够精采
你的爱在心底不会枯萎

gtg eat le.bb

n b4 i 4gt,
HAPPY 16th BDAE 2 GARY KOR! =D

pls,go away.

2007-04-21T10:52:00.000+08:00

6 days nv blog liaox.><

hahas v lazy..

zzzzzzz

our guitar gt silver 4 syf..

no improve,no deprove.

bt it ws quite heart breaking bahx.

aft all e hard work uncle lim n all of them haf bn putting in..

haix sianz.

ppl cried.n many were v disappionted..

feeling sort of sad tt seniors leaving liao.

sec3s n sec4s all no more chance 2 play 4 syf le.

its lyk

im nt sure..

sort of sad lahx.

gt av meeting bt i din go..

thn scully jess cum up tell me sae i kena treasurer wid carmen.
i shocked.dots.

nvm.

n our sch netballers won e match.

its lyk,

omg,im s proud of u guys!=D

ysd din wnt 2 sch cus me n deb wnt 2 e dragonboat ting.
well as usual,

we lost,

bt its quite an improvement le lohx.

all of us managed 2 coordinate.
i ws sort of fedup cus e gerl in front of me ws lyk spashing water on me cans.
n its lyk,

if abit n sumtym nia nvm.

bt she EVRY paddle tt wnt in splashed a WHOLE puddle of water on my face.

splash until my whole face wet.

splash until my whole hair oso kena.
splash until evn my shorts n shirt all totally wet.
splash until my eye blur cnt c wt in frnt.

n kp hitting my paddle.
wth,

in e end,

i shouted at her 2 stop it.

rah!

n deb is funnier loh.

she told me nt 2 scold them.
thn in e end,
she herself go sae

"cn u put ur paddle in e water lightly!"

LOL

bt apart frm tt is quite fun lah.

we enjoyed tt tym loh.

thn aft tt we go eat.

n we got lost inside e temasek poly.

gosh.e place's big!X.x

pam n deb.hu's tt guy bhind?=X

other schs.they gt their own dragon boat cca =.=

preparing 2 go in2 e boat..

all set!

i'll nvr 4gt tis moment.

makan time!

its lks out of place.hahas

wt r those 2 gerls doing

swimming pool!

aeroplane!

thn we wnt bac 2 sch lohx.

all of us kena tanned!

n pam n deb kp disturb me cans.
urh.

well e following pics were taken out of boredom :D

3d'07 <33

back view.yucks =X

tis mushrooms r cute!

outside view.hdb flats.lol

dmn frm my floor.=D

aft tt we wanted 2 go 2 e yumyumtree bt close.
thn wnt 2 jiajing buy bbletea.

hahas thn pam wnt bac 2 sch wid her bro.

i wnt 2 deb's house.

bath there i took ermx.

half an hour?

lols

n deb s irritating.

outside kp shouting

im tanned im tanned!

hahas

thn she plaed e song yu jian n qing tian on e piano.

it ws nice cans.

esp e yu jian song.

thn lata we go buy e whitening mask n ate kfc.

thn we go put e mask

wahahas 2 kukus!

diao.

thn both of us ly on e floor w8ting 4 it 2 dry..

thn lata go peel it off.

hahas my skin colour bac 2 almost norm liao.

cept 4 e reddish colour.

bt deb's 1 ws still s obvious.=X

lols

thn we prepared 2 go nyt class.

we s xtra cans.

both of us were e oni 1 wearing shorts.

lol

aniwaes,

HAPPY B'DAE YUNKAY!*ysd

HAPPY B'DAE MINGXUAN!*ysd

HAPPY B'DAE ANN GIE!*2dae

thn aft tt we wnt 2 eat.

w8ted 4 e bus until all of us sians liao.

thn wnt 2 prata stall.

saw ms yeo n e guys there.

she treated all of us lah.

n we felt quite bad cus jz nw in class she ordy treat us sweets liao.

haix,

thn aft tt deb nd 2 leave cus she ws late.

ws feeling emo cus e dae's ending liao.

n we had s much fun loh.

i nt blaming u lah.

s dn tink 2 much bout it kaes.

eeyore!omg s cute ryt?

weird=.=

ms yeo n guys.opps =X

thn aft tt chated wid kor n go slp liao.

haix lata goin out le.

mz pei mummy.

sumore tmr gt tuition.

gtg liao.

i feel my heart stop beating n turning cold as evry min goes past.oh lord,pls tell me wt 2 do.

2007-04-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

ysd my mood ws lyk damn bonkers.lol
i ws lying on e floor n scully,
i started singing at e top of my voice
haha luki glass nv crack.=X

deb paid my house a visit cus she visiting her ama's house s sunbian lohx.
thn we did amaths.
hmms nt me bahx,i ws bzy lazying around.
hahs!
thn we wnt 2 parkway check on wt 2 buy 4 weilin..
sianx we walkwalkwalk thn scully cum across e musical box.
it ws sweet mans.
turnturnturn n the sound cum out.
i actually wanted to buy e 1 wid e happy bdae song
bt deb said it ws lyk s outdated liaox.
logical though.
her bdae oredy 1wk plus ovr le leh!
lols
thn we din understand e friends tt song s we bought e memory 1 frm cats.
thn wnt bac lahx.

e bus stop incident ws funny.
deb you r s fated!
opps =X

thn whn walking bac gt tis bunch of flies flying in front of me n deb.
thn 4 obvious reason,
i screamed n duck.
thn cum up aft i tot i ws safe lah.
thn stupid,i ws directly blow e flies can.
deb saw e flies above us n ws lyk swapping cus she felt sth on her head.
walao disgusting sia.
bt e scenario s funny,
thn we both were lyk held hands,duck,run!
lol

btw,HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!!
u're 15 2dae le,
cheers!xD

tis morning woke up early cus we nd 2 go n pray to grandma.
whn we reached e place,
it ws lyk damn crowded loh.
our lvl ws e highest,
s e scenery frm above ws damn beautiful loh.
n i jz stood thr,
staring n feeling e breeze.
its lyk all my troubles gone liao.
e oni prob is oni gt alot of ppl.
if ppl few wud b s quiet n peaceful lah.
hu saes tt a cemetary is scary n unrested.
i seriously dn agree wid it lah.
its e wae u tend 2 lk at tings.
thn we burned paper money n all.
ws glad i wore black cus e ash were flying all ovr.
thn we wnt 2 e temple thr lah.
another place 2 pray..
thn we ate,
thn wnt 2 e monument area.
saw ppl whom i ws familiar wid.
it made me realize hw fragile life is lah.
s ermx,
jz learn hw 2 cherish tings around u bahx.

thn wnt hm bath n chiong 4 tuition.
tot i ws late s cycled at top speed lah.
thn almost kena by car.
stupid loh e car ws lyk turning in frnt n i din realize.
luki it stop in tym lah,
e car jz banged onto my bike slightly.
i din evn bothered 2 lk at e driver's fucked up face.
jz carried on cycling loh.
tuition s boring.
evry1 slping liao.
n thr's a stupid guy kp repeating e same tink to tcher evry lesson.
"s chim!"
=.=

niwaes nw i serously nth 2 tok about.
nt in e mood 2 do s o nt evn interested lah.

ppl hu gt nth beta 2 do,
move on lah.
tis earth has no place 4 u geddit.
dn make ppl hate n lk down on u.
&&&,
use ur brains more can.
dun make ppl laugh at u.
wt u do doesnt evn affects others bt u urself.
LOL

nvr let wt others say affect u cus u r u urself.
its nt worth it 2 shed a tear 4 them,
change 4 them,
or even notice them.
lyk dad said
"whn e tree's roots r planted firmly into e ground,
no amount of obstacles can uproot it."
be more confident girl.=D

signing of,
`mirage.

beauty flows not through looks,but through true character.=D

2007-04-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

oh wells tis few daes piggy bro's been using the comp..
s no chance 2 blog.wahahas

hmms..april 10
HAPPY B'DAY TO BI AND HAN!
haha.ws weird arh.
rmbered aft we go buy food thn wnt upstairs.
thn bi n han thr loh.
thn stupid bi go crept bhind me n weizhen lyk mouse.
thn we walked.
thn they walked.
thn we walked faster.
thn they walked faster.
thn we ran.
n they chased us!
n they were lyk making all sorts of noise bhind.
lol bt e scenario ws damn funny>.<

ystd,
4gt most of it liaox.
bt had a long tok wid sum1.
haix tinks seem so complicated.
i tink u nd a break bahx.

2dae,
duno y tis few daes suddenly i felt muchmuch beta le.
as if e load is being lifted inside.
duno hw 2 sae..
bt thks 2 those hu's been helping me.
n sry to sum1..
duno wt,
i sumhw felt tt i shudnt b 2 selfish.
yep.

niwaes gt ss and chi test.
wahahas.
i spent oni 20mins reading..
in e end manage 2 write a full page.
jz hope tis tym i dun get tt same 3 marks again.
=.=
plus 4 tt paper i wrote 2 full pages k.
n 3 marks?wtf..

chi ws hilarious.
lol i finish liao.
thn 4gt 2 pass up.
siao.
thn aft sch go find tcher.
kena scolding.
lol thn she sae
"mz c ur ppr,if 2 gd i minus marks."
thn i go tell tcher sae,
"dun wry tcher,
wun 1,cus my marks confirm low."
m i supposed 2 call tt lame?LOL

thn wnt dnt workshop find weilin.
she doing her g-clamp
& we sort of gave pressure to her.
imagine 7 ppl watching her hammer her artifact?
hahas
n thn i tink lata she gt angry & impatient.
cus she ws lyk filing her artifact so vigourously.
in e end,
ended up me,deb,estee took turns to help her file.
bt it got worse loh.
in e end redo again.
imagine hw pissed off she ws lah.
thn later mr lee let her off.

thn we were lyk walking to the entrance whn sum1 shouted.
BUS!
& every1 CHIONG ARH!
hahahaha!

thn wnt up tt double deck bus 2 tm lahx.
thn i ws lyk eating e salmon spread.
super hungry lohx.
thn jess weizhen sit in frnt,
a sec1 guy bhind them,
me n iry bhind tt guy,
n deb n weilin bhind us.
thn lata weizhen turn back.
n saw tt guy bhind her covering his nose n mouth wid both hands.
n she tot wt happen.
thn she lk at me eating.
weizhen:amanda,hw cum he lidat?
me:huh?
weizhen:thr e guy
me:(saw him n even more puzzled)huh?
weizhen:(ask tt guy)u cnt stand e food smell isit?
guy:stared at us
me:u rili cnt stand e smell arh?u ok nt?i go throw it away lah
guy:shaking
wz & me:(panics)
thn i almost wnt down n scully he remove his hand n said:
"very cold."
WODETIAN!
he damn cute lah~!
thn we burst out laffing..
walao i still tot wt.

lol thn we wnt 2 macs.
duno wt happen e price lyk kena rise lidat.
n i swore i heard e lady said $2.
thn gif her money she sae is $3 n i nvr listen properly.
hahas thn we started toking about sum1,
lol its lyk,
i no comments.
bt if 1day a miracle happens,
i wish ahem good luck.
muahaha!=X
evil.
thn lata toked about e chi ppr.
n thn it ws s hilarious lah.
we confirm ur ppr fail liaox.
GUAI REN.wahahahas!xD

n i passed my 2.4km!
nono,
is i passed ordy,
bt nvr reach tcher's target.
he expects us gerls to all get gold.
so tt means at least a c.
n finally aft 3 rounds!
sumhw i felt tt whn im happier,
i run faster.
weird lol.
thn take height n weight.
hmms i grew 1cm.
n losed weigh.
LALALA
wenqing,bleahs.
im no lnger heavier thn u.
xD
aniwaes,nafpa ws postponed 2dae.
my targets are lyk damn high loh.
my sunzi challenge me 1..
zzzzzz
ama lao le,
no stamina..
hahas bt i'll still try my best,
dun wana laokui lah.

finally toked finished liao.
2dae's post veryvery, LONG.
zzzzzzz
nights every1,
lollipop dreams.=D

when the stars are shining high in e sky,nth else cn hide their beauty.=D

2007-04-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

sumtyms,in lyf i wonder
how far will a person go 2 get sumtink they wan?
y do ppl do tings lyk backstabbing,evn to besties
y do ppl leave their parents jz 4 their selfish means after years of care n love.
y do ppl gossip n tok about othrs when they themselves r lyk farkingly worse?
y do ppl nt learn 2 cherish until lyf seems 2 cum 2 an end?
y do ppl care oni bout themself whn thr r others in a muchmuch more worse plight than them?
sinsinsin.
n do they regret,do they lk back n tink?
no.
until 1 day whn evrytink goes through n cycle n happens 2 they themself,
thn they cum n cry.
stupid n idiotic.

ppl hu understand,gd 4 u.
ppl hu dun,take it as crapping.

zzzzz gona eat liaox.

nvr do 2 others wt u dun wan 2 happen 2 u..

2007-04-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

ysd,wnt 2 sch.
gt pe lahx.
wsnt no mood 2 do anith.
thn 2.4 run,
i ran,vented my frustrations.
in e end,
i din noe if i ws sweating o crying.
bt it felt s s much beta lahx.

being s temperamental nwadaes.
i din noe wt i ws doing.
hw cud i shout at him?
its lyk,whneva i bcum emo,
i gt angry n irritated easily.
i dare nt tok 2 ani1 nw.
i duno whn im goin 2 shout o vent on them lahx.

jo,nxt tym we go 2gt buy punching bag okay?
s whn we're feeling down,
we punch n punch n punch.
dn nd 2 punch e wall liaox.
thn cn train our strength n vent our frustrations out bahx.=)

ystd ws weilin's bdae,
actually we agreed 2 buy sth 4 her.
n I was supposed 2 buy it.
bt tt dae,
i 4got.
n all bcus my heart ws sumwhr else.
felt s selfish.
i noe u all din blame me.
bt stil,its my fault,isnt it?
haix.
it ws supposed 2 b a
HAPPY BDAE
bt i SPOILT it.
im rilirili sry gerl.

niwaes,we wnt 2 mediacorp lata 2 support erika n anothr ex dunmanite who ws presenting e product.
n e surprise?
we won!
hahas
thn gt 1 part v amusing.
mark lee showed special interest in junyi.
RAIN!
LOL.
he's gonna appear big in tv ;)
thr v strict sia.
wan eat they chase me out of e studio.
stupid loh.
thn ask us 2 put our hp 2 silent.
lata i take my phone,
gt 9 miss calls.
=.=
wnt 2 buy sum drinks thn go back liaox.
reached home at 12plus.
thn had a shower n zzz.

woke up 2dae at 10sth.
thn wnt downstairs.
blurblur de.
thn saw pa making sum cottons.
make me evn more blur loh.
thn in e end i realized he ws removing e clumps from e bolster.
hahas,
plus he cutted it open loh.
lol s amusing.

nth 2 tok about le.
tis few wks,
o 4 e month,
i've been feeling depressed.
plspls,
let thr cum another prince charming who will carry me off wid him 2 a faraway place n live happily eva after.
lol crap lahx.
feel lyk napping again.
bb

`wishing upon e star tt sumday,a miracle wud happen..

2007-04-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

mayb i saw sth i shudnt haf saw,

it oni makes both parties hurt.

i didnt noe if i shud laf o cry lahx.

i dun tink ani1 cud b feeling gd about tis bahx

bt i noe,

thr's no wrng pursuing sum1 tt u love.

s i dun blame o hate.

mayb i jz have to take it e wae it is.

i cnt tolerate lies.its lyk sumtinks r beta 2 b said out thn kp.

cus in e end,e impact wud b more deadly lahx.

i seriously duno wt 2 sae,

styms i ask myself,

isit wrng 2 help?

cus in e end,

e 1 hu's rili hurt is me.

bt stil,i nv did wan 2 b satan,

s if u wan me 2 b happy,

pls b happy urself.tts enuf liaox.=)

niwaes,our class gt gold 4 captain's ball

3d JIAYOU!

overall 3g won,

bt nvm,we've tried our best,

at least we 2nd!

n gerl,1 shudnt b 2 soft.

if u r facing a opponent in a race,

heck care wt she toking lah.

she dare pull u,

i dun care she queen o wt shyt,

whack her!

its her wrng loh,

she dun haf tt privilege 2 boss u around.

n shudnt evn haf lahx.

all of us r standing by ur side u noe,

s thr's no nd 2 cry.=))

since young,mum alwaes tell me sth tt will remain in my mind..

nvr do 2 others wt u dun wan 2 happen 2 u.cus it will cum bac 2 u 1 dae.

s she nw do it 2 u,

w8 until she gt it her own,

n we'll haf a great laf. =D

uhh..sumtyms i wonder,

haf i called e wrng ppl?

its lyk,

whnevr im sad,

u'll b standing by my side lahx.

bt stil,my heart is dead.

s i dn dare 2 gif u s much false hope lahx.

i told u i nd tym,

bt hw long?i duno..

haix,let tym take its course bahx.

oh ya 2dae,we taking neoprint gt

me,wz,estee,wq,wl,jess,deb,sakshi,

n anothr gerl ermx paiseh i 4gt ur name =.=

thn whn taking liaox yeye,megan n jiamin chiong jin lai!

walao evry1 squeezing lyk mad loh.hahas!

madness =.=

whn tings bcum 2 complicated,i'd rather nt c anith.=/

2007-04-04T09:56:00.000+08:00

many tings happened tis daes..
i rili duno wt 2 sae lahx.
bt all i cn sae is,
i shud noe hw 2 give up.

1stly,i dun tink its worth w8ting 4 guys lyk u.
u've hurt e harts of gerls jz 4 ur selfish lust.
all tis daes i've been tinking..
as a fren u're gd,bt nt as a stead.
s its best we remain tt wae.
i jz hope 1 day u'll realize ur mistake,
cus i noe sum1's w8ting 4 u.
n she gd,really.
u shud noe hw 2 cherish her.

2ndly,there r muchmuch more purposes in life.
my studies haf been slacking,
my relationship with my frens n families.
s its tym 2 buck up.

3rdly,i believe,when u're crying,sum1 is crying 4 u.
s cherish tt sum1 hu noes hw 2 cherish u.=)

n guys,i love tis poem.=)

i want to let it out,feel the emotion
run up a mountain,swim in the ocean
fly far away to a peaceful place
win a gold medal,run the race

feel e breeze flow through my hair
learn to love myself,learn to care
not to be frustrated with life n its woes
my pain filled past are doors i want to close

i've come tis far n cant give up yet
is there sum1 out there i have nt met
the drink of the devil did nearly kill me
false hopes n tradgedy i did almost see

will i grow old or even wake tmr
no more pain,no more sorrow
live with dignity & truth,not a lie
express not repress bt still i cannot cry..

goin 2 stadium later..gtg prepare liaox.bb

whn the truth starts 2 shine,most of us prefer not 2 c it..

2007-04-01T16:07:00.000+08:00

jz came bac frm tuition..well 2dae's tuition sux.
tcher gave us 4 sheets of paper 2 do.
n his 5 mins of doing ws lyk 20 mins at least cans.
thn i ended up slping in class.
zzzz.

HAPPY APRIL FOOL GUYS!
hahas cnt imagine wt kinda mean joke ppl r playing on each othr.
bt well,my joke ws SUPERDUPER lame.
o u can sae,
the ppl's reaction were totally unexpected=.=
lol

wteva,
nw w8ting 4 zhaowei 2 cum on9.
si zhaowei,
BE A GENTLEMAN CAN.
hw can u make a lady w8 4 u lah
lols lst tym go out wid u,
make me w8 1 HOUR.
nice job =.=

i stil wan u bac wid me.
hw cud u leave me jz lyk tis.
its s unfair 2 me.
no i dun care if u cnt face urself o wt.
bt i din mind,i told u did i?
u ended it jz bcus u cnt face urself.
its s heartbreaking.
haix bt at least inside,
i have beautiful memories of u n me.=')

tis ws hw u won my heart ovr.=')

tis is interesting guys.=) sumhw,u made me laf.
n stupid,tt hearts r MINE=.=

2007-03-31T11:32:00.000+08:00

i dun understand.i rili dun understand lah
ysd u all left me in a farking pissed mood.
im sry i shudnt b saeing all tis cus its ovr.
bt cn u at least spare a tot 4 me?
doesnt mean tt i kp quiet tt means im feeling nth.
doesnt mean i dun wan 2 sae means im a coward.
im jz tolerating all tis okay.
im not a fool.nt an idiot.
i oso have feelings 2 lyk all of u lah.

b4 recess.i wan copy e ws.ya its correct if i copy tt tym i wun b able 2 listen 2 wt tcher saeing.bt pls lah.recess i go buy food 4 u all u tink i gt tym 2 copy?okay nvm.

thn recess.orders came.actually ws going down wid weizhen bt ysd she dowan go down.
i dn lyk 2 go down alone o wt lah.i dowan 2 go down alone.
it makes me feel stupid cans.
n there i ws holding e slip of orders n asking hu wud go down wid me.
n evry1 downa 2 go down jz bcus they DUN feel lyk going down.wt about me lehx.u tink i lyk 2 take orders frm u all?i oni dun mind loh.

n i stil gt hw 2 copy leh.
thn u all ask me go here go thr asking ppl.
thn lata whn no1 wan 2 go down,
sakshi ask me pei her go council table.
sry nt i dowan 2 go.
bt i jz quit council i dowan 2 b xtra thr.
i noe u r trying 2 find waes 2 make me feel more at home bt i jz dowan 2 trouble u.
thn in e end wq go down wid me lohx.

aft we buy food liao,i wnt up.
i noe deb care cus she asked me wt happen.
i guess she knew it from e lk on my face.
im sry i noe i shudnt haf bhaved lidat.
bt if u put urself in MY shoes,
hw will u feel?
is nt i dowan 2 buy 4 u.
bt its lyk.tink tis wae lah,
if u all take turns 2 go down wid me,
1 wk oni nd 2 go down 1 tym o less ryt.
n its nt as if im asking u all 2 do sth illegal o wt lah.

aniwaes dun take tis seriously lahx.
its ovr n im okay nw.
im nt blaming anibody.
sry i jz had 2 sae it out nw cus i dowan 2 kp it insid
until e lst min thn i sae evrytink out.

n thr's a need 2 apologize 2 those im being attituded 2..
yeah tis few wks i've been feeling depressed lah.
s i jz vent attitude on u ppl.
sry guys.

its lyk sumtyms,i dun tink ani1 understands me..
cus evrytink tt they sae,
in e end im stil left alone 2 face it.
ysd nyt i locked myself in e toilet n cried.
cried until i felt muchmuch beta..

aft sch ysd i wnt 2 find him 2 gt bac my umbrella.
duno y,my heart aches whn he lked s cold n ws lyk avoiding my eye.
m i tt scary?
o isit tt u jz cnt face me aft all tt u've done?
u're being idiot hir u noe.
u're avoiding me.
u're running away bcus u dun dare 2 face 2 e problem.
stop being a coward lah!
u tink u cn avoid 4eva mehx.
n wt farking special frenx r u refering 2 me as?
idiots arh?o enemies instead?
ur msg is lyk evn more cold thn norm frenz can.
u tink i duno?
i hate tolerating all tis le loh.
whn i try 2 b kind n understnading,
u take me lyk a fool o sum1 2 step ovr.
whn im demanding,
u sae im controlling ur lyf.
evrytink u nt happy.
fark lah!i sick of tis liao cans!

okay stop saeing bout tis spoil my mood.

i cnt w8 4 sports day!yipee!
crap lah thurs haf 2 maths test.
a maths e maths all test..
wan us die arh.
thn aft tt gt e mediacorp tingy until nyt cans.

n ysd e choc ws delicious loh
duno they blend wt water wid syrups 4 chng yong n math
n tt disgusting choc blended wid water n syrup!
i cnt blif hw they cud drink it up lehx.
lks lyk ur $$$ were wasted though.lols

argh my dark circles were s obvious!
tis few nyts haf nt been slping nicely..
well..nth 2 sae le
signing off,
manda

♥ hidden inside my heart,i noe u stil exist.u do.

2007-03-27T17:18:00.000+08:00

zzzz..shall fill u on ysd.
ysd morning ws raining lyk hell lohx.
thn i late 4 sch le 7.35 stil on e bus..=.=
s on bus ws chanting lyk shyt askin 4 rain.
n guess wt?
thks GOD rili gave me my wish.
it rained s heavily lohx.n my umbrella!!!
its still wid tt guy n he haven return sia.
walao thn i run all e wae 2 sch in e rain..
drenched frm head 2 toe lahx.
i lk s freaking idiotic cans.
thn in class nv bring pe shirt s no choice haf 2 change 2 tt disgusting orange colour shirt.=X
thn dragged deb 2 e toilet.haha s funny we found e handryer 2 dry my hair n clothes.lols thn deb n me lyk aunties thr drying e clothes.
thn lata diok flu..kp sneezing.zzz
n math sry i din hear u lol

thn 2dae wake up my eye pain v sticky n dry sia.
sort of spoiled my mood lohx.
plus i woke up v early de..
bt slacked until s late.ws sort of pissed wid myself lah.
thn in sch tchr toking my eye lyk gona close liao.
e oni class i dare nt slp in is amaths n dnt.
amaths cus tchr KP picking on me.boring!!!
dnt cus i dowan gt fined.lols ms quek lyk evrytink finefinefine.
nv tuck in shirt nv bring nametag all fine.sianx
thn recess as usual me n weizhen go downstairs buy food 4 e rest.
ok im farking pissed off 2dae u dn cum n gif me tt kinda lk okay.
dn nd me TELL u u noe hu u R.
thn pon guitar again.
i actually wana go de lohx.bt hu ask u 2 seperate those syf 1 n those non syf 1s.
i dowan b xtra okay.s nt goin bleahx =p
iry sry pangseh u many tyms liao..
aft sch ate wid wl,jolene,wq,deb,wz,iry n estee
thn deb go band,wl go hall duty,za n estee duno go whr left us nia.
thn go bbtea shop.
niwaes we planning 2 get weilin's prezzie duno whn hu free..
cnt w8 4 sports dae!tym is lyk goin s slowly sia..
shall stop here.bb

im stil wishing u wud cum bac..

2007-03-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

2dae woke up early go 2 e sort of lucky draw wteva tingy lahx.
thn i prepare evrytink le bt lst min nd 2 go toilet thn late thn mummy give me e angry lk 4 e whole journey 2 tt place lohx.
thn whn reach liao no1 reach yet.we e earliest cans.
sumore mummy gif me e lk n cold shoulder 4 nth i got evn angrier n v fedup liaox.
s whn e lady n e gerl gime e ppr i jz snatch it n walk away.
mummy gd lah.ask me dun lidat u tell me hw loh.
i kena u gime angry lk 4 no reason its nt evn my fault cans=.=
rah!!!
thn we walked under HIS block..haix
thn piggy bro told me he admire sum1..
wah interesting!
im gona find out hu e unlucky gerl is..
=XXX hehe
jz came bac frm tuition..quite fun lah n i spotted sum1 thr..
n e stupid guys r lyk asking lame questions.
had a nightmare ystd lohx.walao fark lah i s damn freaked out by butterflies lah.1 butterfly enuf 2 send me screaming all e wae liaox.thn sumore tt dream is lyk s kuku.urgh.idiotic.
duno lehx.im sort of pissed off nwadaes cus papa kp asking me 2 do hw do hw.
zzzz bb

2007-03-20T19:27:00.000+08:00

feeling colourful 2dae,s evrytink's gona b in COLOURS.x))
argh!
crampcrampcramp 2dae!
pain lohx.had 2 get panadol from estee.
bt lyk no difference sia..
still pain lehx.lols
my results!nonono i ws e worse in my class lohx.
amaths 2/40 fark lah 2 marks oni=.=
thn wnt find dnt tcher aft sch.
tcher gaf me 2 marks more 38nhalf hahas v happy
thn aft sch wnt wid wl,wh n iry..
lata go bubbletea shop buy bubbletea.
hehex cramp stil drink sia luki deb nt thr.opps=X
lata deb kill me.
thn while w8tin 4 bus michelle came thn chatchatchat..
s as usual hor,mon we'll mit! =DDD
lata wnt online n saw sth..dots im nt gona tell u wt.
tt idiot claimed it as his.hw dare he put it online!
felt lyk strangling him sia
ystd gt pa n e guys ganged up 2 mess my hair.dots..
thks ALOT mans.i rili APPRECIATE it.
SIANS.v boring..zzzz

2007-03-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

i jz feel lyk isolating myself n hide frm evry1 loh.
i dowan 2 open my eyes n c any1 liaox.

cn ani1 feel e silence in me?!

my heart's freezing;
im feeling cold.even my attitude IS cold.
im stressed up n i vent my anger on evry1.i sux so GET LOST!

woke up 2dae n ws in a damn bad mood.shouted at mum n dad.haix i duno wt's happenin 2 me.mood swings?no i dun tink so.its lyk i haven been s emo n temperamental 4 hw long le cans.evn if im bad mood norm i wud tend 2 kp it insid.bt i cnt take it le.thr's s many tings in my mind i feel lyk bursting liaox.its lyk evn a smallsmall ting lyk a fly cud make me soso angry.i feel lyk evrytink i do is wrng.everytink i do is stupid.n wt OTHERS do is correct.im miserable n u're all HAPPY can!arhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!i tot tt tis hols wud help me 2 ease my pain.4get about him.relax.bt wt did i get?im stuck in tuition n homeworks jz bcus im expected 2 do beta.yes i said i wud do beta.bt does it means i haf 2 spend 6hrs on my revision?its totally out of point loh.since pri sch til nw,im alwaes free 2 do wt i wan n thn nw scully lidat.i dun tink u evn understand my feelings loh.thn aun came 2dae n i ws in a super bad mood n wrng tyming she tok 2 me.i heard bt nv rply.thn mummy scold me lah.insid i ws tinkin hw rude i ws.haix i STIL cnt 4gt him.haha im e world's BEST MORON!he's living happily nw n u're suffering.n its al bcus of U URSELF.y did u evn accpt him?u gt tis upon urself.n u let him hurt u again?im s disappionted in u..

if thrs anothr turning point in lyf,
i'd rather tt i'd nvr walked tis path.
n i mean it.

really.='(

2007-03-13T16:30:00.000+08:00

rah!im feeling guilty!
its lyk..no i dun wan tis 2 hapen
bt y mz it b e othr wae round?
im SRY.RILI SRY

haiz totally stressed out liaox.

n 2dae,wnt bugis.
mummy bought a RED belt 4 me.LOL

duno whn im gona wear it.
bt mum said its unique.urghs nvm.

andandand,
im STUCK wid stupid hws n revision 2 do.
thks 2 results.

n yeah im dead.totallydead.

n @ e end of e dae,
WHO'S GONA SAVE ME??!

he din msg 4 2 daes.
n s I took e initiative.
i msged him n asked him hw's evrytink.
i guess i cnt 4gt him.
bt i WIll n i MEAN it!

s stop lking down on me.
i noe im wrng.
i shudnt haf done tis if i wana 4gt him.

bt im trying.at least i did.
haiz im rili disapionted in u AMANDA.

whn u face a prob,
ur idea is 2 run away?
cry on bed?
isolate urself tinking its all a BAD dream?
daydream?
think tt tis lyf is hopeless?
miss him?

GET A MOVE ON!i hate u i hate u ihate u!
CNT U JZ LK AT E REALITY?
he's LEFT u
he DOESNT evn CARES about wt u're thinking.

u SUX u SUX u SUX!

argh JZ LEAVE ME ALONE! :_;

2007-03-12T16:20:00.000+08:00

damn sians loh.stuck at hm nth 2 do..N thanks 2 my DEAR math kor i kena woken up frm my beauty sleep.lols thn wana nap again anothr phone call came >.< sians thn cnt slp liao go wash up n watch cartoons..haha childish sia thn cook my own noodle n drank orange juice thn my whole tongue orange..i ws lyk lking at e mirror LAUGHIN at myself =.= madness sia me.hmms thn lata go outside walkwalk.its lyk..im tinkin of u, bt r u?isit true love if u r evn willing 2 let me go?i guess nt.haix sort of spoiled my mood liaox.thn wnt up plae comp kena scolding by mummy..thn maid bought noodle 4 me.i actually sat thr 4 an hr n half trying 2 FINISH e food.in e end cnt tahan thn stop eating liaox.go nap ;p haha lata grow as fat as pig!jz nw lking through e blogskins n songs actually wanted 2 change de..bt in e end still stuck wid e same skin n song cus i cnt find othr beta 1..oh ya sat wnt out wid zhaowei kor cus feeling dpressed.ahem s he ask me out gt mu di de cans.wan buy wallet 4 sum ger y s secret nehx?make me evn mor wan 2 noe hu sia..oi i dn care hor if e ger dn lyk dn cum n find me can liaox.lols thn we were at e shop whn i saw his frenz he ws thr oso bt wnt sumwhr else..thn aft go watch movie..yay evrytink kor treat i lyk eating his $$$ lol..niwaes thks 4 evrytink horx.thn lata on e bus kor tell me sth sae mz b prepared 4 tt sth if nt i myt nt take it in e end..mayb bahx,bt i noe wt i'll do.=))

2007-03-09T18:32:00.000+08:00

duno y im feelin s depressed evn aft exams liao.i felt sumwhat..empty.yeah n thn ws on e bus 2dae.i ws downryt pissed.okay s damn depressed cans.thn on e bus whn scully tears jz fell.haix i rili duno wt 2 sae.its lyk im s useless.aft crying n listen 2 ppl's advice 4 s lng,im stil stuck at e same place.its rili hard 2 4get.bt whn i tok 2 her on e bus,i realized tt thr r ppl hu felt evn worse thn me.bt she's amazing,she gt ovr it..yep its an achievement.dun tink bout it animore.tis kinda frenx nt worth it.im sure sumwhr around thr will b frenx hu rili care.hahas its nt worth it.rili not.bt i stil wan 2 kp e wonderful memories wid me.its wrng 2 kp holding on 2 e past,bt thr r tyms whn tis memories let u recall n bring bac all e beautiful tyms b4.wt is love?i guess i can nv tell.til nw,i dun noe.dun evn noe if he's hart is stil wid me o jz plain infatuation.it myt oredi bn wid sum1 else.words can nv hold a promise.bt actions do.u dun nd 2 promiz evrytink by words bt by ur actions.i duno wt 2 sae nw,i haf a bad feeling though.it will nv b e same again.he's sort of ignoring me.n insid,i guess i noe e reason.i shudnt hold on.i shudnt hope.sumtyms i feel lyk loving anothr 2 get ovr tis.bt no,its nt ryt.its nt true love.n im nt gona b tt hartless 2 make use of any prsn.n if it fails again,u'd oni get evn more hurt.i've failed 2 tyms ordy.again n again.mayb he had ordy 4gtten e 1st tym we met,e tym whn he promized he'd nv hurt me,e tym he said he ws zhen xin,e tym whn he said he'll nv leave me,n e tym whn he said he'll cherish me.i dun nd 2 blind myself in hope wishing u wud cum bac sumdae.i noe wt u're tinking.u dun nd 2 gif me animor reasons 2 w8 on.dun nd 2 gif me any false hopes.shi jian hui ba quan bu de shi biao xian chu lai.ta yi jing rang wo zhi dao zhen zen de ni.wo bu yong zai sha sha de deng le.zhong you yi tian,xiang xing hui zao dao zhen zen de ai..

2007-03-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

zzZZzz..hahas 2dae woke up thn realize i haven study my emaths.die!bt nvm at least i felt i knew hw 2 do MORE thn e previous tym..wah sianx i tink mz find tuition liaox.DOWAN!urgh actually im okay if they dun gif hw.cus i CONFIRM wun do de..hehex.my chi lyk shyt lah i spent 2 much tym on e 1st section thn 2nd section which is MUCH more important & holds MORE marks i cnt finish.kukuhead sia me.i oni realized whn about ten mins 2 finish.gime more stress nia.nvm i tis tym dun do well,nxt tym will be more motivated.=)) hahas thn 2dae hyper sia.arh stop saeing bout tt incident!its not true,it cnt b true.no,i DOWAN it 2 be true!bt i feel guilty sia..v pian xin.lols.n thn chi lsn i kp toking n toking,n wq cnt concerntrade.mu biao da dao!haha i purposely de.duno y i 2dae feel deb super quiet.hmms she studying lah.wq dun cum wid e ultimate cuteness tingy again hor.lols 2mr dnt thn fri super stress gt comb science plus amaths.yesh gona finish exams liao!thn HOLS le..i gona slack n hm n hang out.jz nw jo n me talked n thn came 2 1 of e sensitive topics.yup ermx.duno hw 2 sae lah.jz cn sae,im nt strong lahx.jz able 2 control my mindset.niwaes ur mind is e most powerful system mah.ur mind die u die.lols yup n thks god i oni nd 2 take few daes 2 get ovr.hehex.since young,i oni haf 1 goal in life which is 2 live happily.s perhaps tts y im able 2 tink pos evn whn tings go wrng..or u cn sae i v bo chap 2 evrytink lyk larry sae lohx.hahas i dun tink bout wt im goin 2 do in future or wt r my standards.as lng as im happy doing wt i wan.=D okay lahx,gona study liaox.byebye!

2007-03-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

2dae gt eng thn geog n ss 2gt.hahas duno wt i doing.e eng ppr i writewritewrite thn in e end duno wt i writing..nvm jz leave it loh.lols thn e humanities ppr.arhhh!i lk at e ss qstn n my mind ws lyk..blank 4 ten mins can.thn aft tt i realized i haven started n chiong..sumore e ppr oni 1hr sia..diedie!hahas i 4gt evrytink s write alot of crap all i tink out de..thn poor wq e geog ppr mingming shi coniferous forest let her c until mangrove sia.wt pineapple lohx.its cone shape lehx..wah make until i feel lyk bursting out laffin until i c her sadsad face.lols nvm nxt tym u c a picture mz put it ryt in frnt of ur eyes 2 c liaox.evry detail mz c carefully..muahahaha evil sia.=X walao recess crap loh.wnt 2 general office thn kena caught.thn v pissed sia my fingernail is quite ok de nt lng lohx.ryt sid can kp lng cus guitar mahx.mei ci gen wo zuo dui.wo gou suay loh.kena caught hw many tyms n u kp saeing my poor innocent nails..thn took my nametag.hahas thn wnt bac 2 class thn realize nt oni me wz n pris oso kena nametag taken away.thn decided go find her 2gt aft sch.wah cnt imagine if she noe we all frm sm class she sure complain 2 tcher de..luki nv.hmms thn e eng oral.haha s luki sia i din evn study o tink about e qstn im supposed 2 prepare 4 evn though i asked 4 e qstn n had it wid me.thn scully tcher call me i diok shock.thn took wq's ppr.thn lata she check e name gt wq's name thn she ask me hw cum gt 2 amanda.LOL.thn start le she ask me i direct ans sia.nt evn prepared lehx.luki my mind work fast i toktoktok all i tink of.haha thn gt 12/16.yay!XD thn aft tt assembly liaox.duno wt they toking sia i DUN EVEN understand ANITH.i ws lyk huh wt polytenic?huh wt chemical wt?lols thn assembly finish liaox go find tcher..haix i guess i in her blacklisted students liao she rmb my name e othrs she duno.sad sia thn find wq n deb thn we go eat thn jo n sakshi came thn go hm liao..drink coffee again.ahh y tt sum1 mz cum n make me s ps.e sec1's ting is lyk s damn embarrassing cans.although ovr liaox i stil cnt 4gt it.n blif it o nt STILL gt ppl making fun of me.haix.gimme trouble niax.shooshooshoo!>.<

2007-03-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

its been quite sum tym since i had tasted a marshmallow as swit as tis..yumyum.hehex all tis while i've been under alot of pressure,stress.i nv had a real laf since s many tings happen.its rili sort of sapping all my energy away.exams cuming bt im sort of unprepared.isit rili unprepared or m i jz tinking tt wae?styms whn tings go wrng,i start 2 tink negatively.perhaps most ppl wud sae tt its wrng 2 tink tt wae cus it wud oni leave u wid no hope.bt 4 me,tings wud seem beta.cus whn i tink negatively n instead tings get beta,i feel gd.it makes me feel lyk im achieving evrytink in d small wae.i do admit i feel lonely at tyms.searching 4 love tt i tink is missing in my lyf.i tink tt in tis lyf im alone.no 1 cares 4 me.no 1 loves me.it makes me feel tt im awaes left out.perhaps tts y i duno hw 2 appreciate tings around me.n whn evrytink fails in e end,my mindset is,its e end..i bear grudge,i hate,n nvr 4gif.i've been trapping myself in tis world 4 yrs to cum.since young,i felt v unfair.i ws e 1 alwaes bein bullied.i hate myself 4 bein s useless.i hate myself 4 nt being able 2 do anith.n e incident tt left me wid a huge wound 4eva.i ws betrayed by my own classmates.n given a public scolding n whacking by mum.i duno if they've any idea hw much hurt they've inflicted in me.bt i blif in retribution.it will go bac 2 them.since thn,i've trapped myself in tis world of darkness.i nv opened up.n i nv trusted mum again.i hated her 4 nt trustin me.nor did i trusted her wid my probs again.bt as i grow up,i realiz she ws e one hu rili cared 4 me.i regreted treating her s coldly.mayb i shud jz let tings go.mum didnt noe wt happened tt tym.she ws worried n angry.n i nv tried 2 let her understand my feelings.s whn 1 dae i ws argueing wid her,i shouted tt she din care 4 me,she din trust me o luved me b4.i told her tt i've nvr 4gave her since e p1 incident.it left her in tears.it ws e 1st tym i made mum cry.i felt s guilty.im sry.its my fault.i felt s selfish.its whn i started realizing tt i hurt ppl w/o knowing.n i tried.i tried tinkin of ppl's feelings.i cnt b selfish animore.mum myt haf 4gotten tis incident.bt it wil stay 4eva in my heart.and as i realize she is getting older each dae,i wana give her a hug n tell her hw much she mean 2 me n thks her 4 s much she'v done.i love u mum.=D

2007-03-03T10:01:00.000+08:00

ystd our 3rd mth le..bt its wnt we decided to end evrytink.its sort of hard 4 me 2 accept.bt i haf 2 move on..i realized wt it means whn u sae tt its oni 4 sum1 u rili luv tt u'll cry 4 them.yup i cried ystd nyt.n i ws out wid mummy daddy n bro.i told her about it.i tink dad oso guessed wt happen liao.i expect them 2 scold me,lecture me 4 getting into tis kind of relationship probs.bt no,they din.instead,mom talked 2 me e whole nyt.she told me tt no mata wt happens,i haf 2 b strong.i mz learn to overcome tis n dun repeat e same mistake again.we chatted vry long.n tts whn i realized sumwhr around me,thr r ppl hu care.they r alwaes thr 4 me,supporting me.like deb,larry,wq,sakshi my family n frenz.i ws stubborn ystd.sort of wnt mad whn i tried to control my tears.bt it jz flowed naturally.i guess i'll jz haf 2 cry it all out.deb practically shouted evrytink in2 my head.he scolded me 2.he said he ws angry cus i jz refused 2 moved on.n whn he said tt he haf no feelings 4 me animore,i finally woke up.mayb sumtyms its ryt 2 shout at me.its oni thn i will realiz my mistake.i din noe wt 2 rply at tt tym.i ws v hurt.v sad.e dae b4 ystd,i ws spending tym folding straw harts wid e intention of giving it 2 him.it took me e whole nyt b4 i finished e whole lot of straws.sumore i ws stuck wid e group project work n vocab test.bt nw i guess i'll jz throw it away.its no use hanging on.n if one day u happen 2 read tis,i dowan u 2 blame urself..i've 4given u.u shud learn 2 4gif urself.pls dun blame urself.stop hating urself.stop saeing tt u cnt accept urself animore.mayb we're nt fated 2 b 2gt.like wt u said,if we r,we'll mit again.thr's owaes a glimspe of hope whn u kp hoping.sumtyms,u jz haf 2 accept e fact whn its gone.i dowan 2 haf any sibling relationship 2 do wid u cus it wud oni bring back painful memories.im sry 4 being selfish.i cnt slp ystd.whn i finally slp at 12sth,i woke up at 1+,thn 4+,thn 6+..i off my hp bcus i dun wana listen animore.bt whn i finally took up e courage to on my hp n read ur msg,i guess i felt beta.thks 4 evrytink.i will learn 2 let go wid e wonderful memories u left me.i will learn 2 let go n at least i noe we still lyk each other..im living in e bitterswit world nw.i wan peace n quiet.i wan 2 sort out my tots.i nd tym 2 get over.i may nt b strong nw.bt i will grow stronger in future.at least i haf tis strong willpower 2 live on.i nv blifed tt lyf is w/o hope.its jz part n parcel of lyf.n whether u r willing 2 let go.its ovr.im gona cry.im gona cry it all out.im gona let it go.im gona live on..

2007-03-02T18:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha!i muz b e world stupidest moron around..nw tt its heading ryt to e rocks tt i finally realized my mistake..2 put it harshly,i duno hw 2 love.n in a relationship,e 2 ppl mz b e ones who each take initiative 4 it 2 work.bt 4 me,no.i left him 2 take all e initiative n i guess nw he's tired n sick of it liao.whneva we go out,he will b e one asking me out.wheneva we msg,mostly its he who msg.whneva we tok on e phone,its he who call.wt am i doing?slping lyk slping beauty w8ting 4 him to do evrytink.im stubborn.totally stubborn.n i guess tts y nw he'e tired n avoiding liao.even if i wan 2 try to save e situation..its 2 late isnt it?i wan it 2 b e same again bt is he willing to take tis risk again?its nt e 1st tym its happening..e lst tym it happened n he tried to sae out wt he tink,i ws ignorant to it.he said e same ting kp happening n he's sort of tired of it liao.s sumtym mz quarral.bt no,its nt tis meaning.he jz duno hw 2 put it..in e end, its still boils down tt both of us mz take turns 2 take initiative.its lyk tis isnt it?n nw,happily 4 myself,i ws e 1 hu sen it heading ryt to e rocks.its 2 late le..our 3rd mth 2dae bt he's still avoiding me..im sry..its my fault.if u wan 2 end it,i wun blame u le..mayb if i had realized my mistake earlier,it wudnt haf happened.bt nw..i guess its over.

2007-02-26T17:09:00.000+08:00

arhhh!!!cnt blif e tests cuming liaox.im TOTALLY not prepared lohx.nvm mz tink of positive sid.im gona chiong study liaox.at least i muz pass 4 evrytink!ermx hopefully..okay hr goes my dae..ystd nyt gt bad headache thn ly on e bed.felt s weird i ws feeling warm n cold at e same tym.i ws cuddling insid my blanket tryin 2 get 2 slp..e headache's gona kill me sia..thn i dozed off.read his msg lata at 12sth.i FELT s bad.no,cus tis nt e 1st tym i fell aslp w/o tellin him loh..he SHUD b angry,n yet he said dun need 2 punish loh..thks 4 being s understanding.=D thn aft sch mit wid wq,jo,wl thn wnt 2 e optical shop..hmm wearing contact lens seem s damn scary can.wq's eye lyk red e othr tym n wl wear e contact lens tt tym it half cumin out.c liao damn scare sia.s e best is nt 2 wear specs at all,haf a perfect eye.=D s lame sia.lols thn lata jo told my sth.arghh i wana strangle sum1!made me s damn jealous n angry cans.walao sumore sae until lyk wt.PERVERT sia!tym goes s fast n s many tings hapen liaox.i still feel lyk im in sec1 alth i sec3 liaox.its a weird feeling.. guess tts y im s relaxed bout tings.sumtyms i sit down n wonder..im s happy we patch liao..at 1st i nv blifed tt tis cud happen.is tis fate?haha i dun rili blif in fate in relationship kind of tings bcus i blif tt if u rili love sum1,nth cn stop u frm loving him/her.evn whn tt person dies u'll continue loving them.yup tts wt i tink it shud b.lalala~ arhh hanakimi!!!gona go watch liao..bb

2007-02-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

i love u..
chi;wo ai ni
jap;ai shite imasu
malay;saya cintakan kamu
korean;sarang haeyo
russian;ya tebia lybly

valentines dae..wt m i feeling?im sort of messed up nw..s many tings happen i cnt rili recount it le..bt all i cn sae is i rili hoped we will last.i duno wt 2 sae lah.bt i ws v hurt whn he said tt all 2 me..its 2 sudden.tt ws e most impulsive words i've heard frm him.y is he doing tis?y mz he hurt both of us?wt is wrng?sumtyms i rili wan 2 go 2 an empty space n scream as loud as i cn.whneva i get in2 a relationship,i pour all my heart n soul in2 it.s y isit still goin wrong?isit all my fault,aft all i've done,i feel v shi bai.i wan 2 ask if he rili luv me n he's rili true de.i wan 2 ask if he rili did,hw cud he bear 2 hurt me.i wan 2 ask y aft s many words n promises we made,its still broken?am i asking 4 2 much?i dun need u 2 pei wo everydae.no.i dun need u 2 sms me evry min.no, i dun need u 2 go e extra mile 4 me.jz simply luv n care..n 2 last.haix im nt going force him le..i gave u tym,n of cus i hoped we cud continue.bt stil,its ur choice.if u wan 2 end it all,i jz haf 2 respect wt u tink.i treat u jz lyk norm,jz lyk hw a gerl shud treat sum1 she luv.s i dun blif in those kind of u treat me 2 gd i nt gd enuf of wteva ting.if u rili wan 2 patch,i wan u 2 mean it,nt jz bcus u feel guilty.i dowan 2 suffer tis kinda hurt again le..

okay lah nw bac 2 sch.2dae deb lyk gen wo shen me chou lidat pe lsn go throw ball ryt on my face n thn lata spray water all over my leg=.= my socks n shoes all wet loh.hahas i noe u din mean it lah i dun mind de..jz b more careful nxt tym,my nose is fragile de hor.lols i nth more 2 sae le..

2007-02-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

2dae 1st tym aft s lng i c deb cry until v sad..styms i wonder in my mind..does he noe hw 2 zhen xi ta mah?does he noe hw she mz haf felt whn he wrnged her?i guess i ll nvr noe..nvm bac 2 e gd tings.yay i cnt w8 4 carnival!!!pa gave me e $20 2 spend!hehe 2dae c dear i s happy..i feel v glad 2 haf him..wid him around i feel s sastified, safe n loved..its wt e othrs haf failed 2 make me feel it b4..okay lah goin 2 find clothes 2 wear 4 sat le.byebye

2007-02-04T17:01:00.000+08:00

ystd ws msging him.thn dozed off sia.woke up read his msg thn realized he is quite angry..frm his words loh.hais sry dear,i shudnt haf said tt.i take bac my word le..4given.=)) he wnt 2 buy clothes wid his mom le..make me v envy cus mummy jz came bac frm hospital haven recover s i predict tt new yr visits i cn sae byebye le.=(( no ang pow..haix i oso duno wt clothes 2 wear.haven buy.bt i planning jumpers n red tee at least got red cn le mah.sad sia he nwadaes nt free..i rili miss him..alot.muacks i hartx u..i dun seemed happy nwadaes.alot of tings go wrng 4 me.sumtyms its 2 sudden i need tym to adapt..i feel tt evn my friendship seems 2 b withering.isit bcus of me?friendship needs tym 2 nuture,understanding 2 grow n trust to last.lyk dad said,if 1 dae a fren is trapped in a fire,a true fren is sum1 hu will stick out e hand n pull them out no mata wt e outcome.e fren cud b jz sum1 hu noe each other 4 a few seconds,yet willing 2 part wid their lyf cus inside,they haf a special place in sum1's heart.tinking bout tis i find myself 2 self centred.okay lah im getting 2 sentimental le..ystd watch naruto oso cn cry.wtf loh.naruto lehx.hahas make me wana laf tinking..=.=

2007-02-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

counting until 2dae is our 2mth 1 dae le..ystd i wanted 2 gif him e present de bt he nt free..he came hm v sad lah.bt aft tt he beta le.=)) dear u shudnt sae tt of urself hor..mz tink positive.thn 2dae dnt group.tk alot of pics lah thn gt my name!!!hehe actually e oni place i rmb goin is red top musuem n makanplace.xp i ate carrotcake cake sia.oily!bt dun care eat finish liao thn jian fei. hahas i 2dae v hapi bcus aft he sae all his probs he seemed beta le.n im glad he at least willing 2 sae it out.=D oh ya thn we go eat ice-cream.urgh e choc drip on2 my shirt!luki nt obvious..deb wore e same outfit again..lols >.< notty boi go call me 2 nag.=X thn i tried bargaining wid him cus i lazy 2 bath.hehe x))

2007-02-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

comp spoil s cnt blog tis daes.im sort of disappionted n sad whn i read her blog..partly its my fault bt sum im totaly unaware of it can.nxt tym gt anith can jz tel me straight loh.i dun evn noe she ws thinkin tt wae.mayb she tt tym v angry lah bt dun i haf e ryt 2 noe at least?e most disappionting part is tt she din tell me n bcus of tt i nv had e chance 2 clarify sum misunderstanding.i cn tell u honestly tt i din purposely turn.u're my bestie n i RESPECT ur decision.if i had hated him i wun haf done mean tings daes ago why w8 until nw?nvm lah over liao.i shud jz 4get bout it liao..

2007-01-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

hmm got our 1st hw 2dae.sort of listenlistenlisten 2 tcher until sch over..sianx.2dae aft sch i ws a disappiontment.nt oni i cn c it in deb n iry's face.made them all w8 cus of him.n though i knew deb had to go hm,i ws lyk taking my own sweet tym doin nth.deb ask me 2 ask nicholas,bt cus a group of guys dere i dare nt go.coward hoh.other tings i cn do bt simple tings lyk tis i scared, stupid loh.haix in e end w8 until he appeared thn sorta pangseh them.sumore cn call wt her bestie sia.pangseh bestie for bf.lan until lyk shit.duno lah.feeling v guilty.sumore ystd oso same case.im v sry..bt dere wun b a nxt tym again,i promise.=))

2007-01-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

sians >.<

01] Is there someone who you like at the moment?
yep =))

O2] Have you ever given or been given roses?
i hate it

O3] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
hmm duno

O4] How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
i duno >.<

O5] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
yup

O6] Do you think that you should be friends first?
duh

O7] Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yep

O8] What do you think about long-distance relationship?
nt sure

O9] Your thoughts on online relationships?
wt u toking

1O] Would you rather date someone five years older or younger?
haha!dream on

11] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
yep

12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
nope,mummy alwaes sae ppl cn change 4 e beta ^^

13] How many kids do you want to have?
1 boy 1 gerl

14] Do you usually fall for a wrong boy/girl or the right boy/girl?
wrng 1.suay hoh

15] What is your favorite color(s)?
sweet pink,baby blue, black,white

16] What are your views on gay marriage?
vomit blood

17] Have you ever broken someones heart?
mayb..?

18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?
i'd suicide.y live s lng?suffer arh

19] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
duno

2O] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
lian ai ping yu =D

2006-12-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

leaving 4 shanghai 2nyt le..hais,i dun feel happy..

2006-12-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

jz read deb's blog.haix instead i tot she ws goin out wid him s gt no tym 2 pei me.she got ask me lah.bt thn whn they go out i dun lyk 2 go cus lidat i oni bcum dian deng pao thn i dun lyk..i oso tink tt we need 2 spent more tym loh.whn deb called me ystd, i ws happy.ws sort of w8ting 4 her 2 call loh.cus evrytym call her she will b lyk i call u lata can? thn 4get liao=.=hahas okay lah bt ystd we chat alot loh.n thn i told her sae 1 dae we go out 2gt loh.=D stil gt e 4 tickets leh. xp wnt 2 mum's childcare 2dae loh.they gt concert s i wnt there 2 help.e kids there vry cute! =) thn lata he send me a msg.c liao laflaflaf=.= goin 2 b fat lyk pig sia morning ate macs,aft oso macs.hahas nth else le.bye

2006-12-07T15:47:00.000+08:00

finally got 1 gd morning breakfast liao! ystd whn cum bac ama hm liaox.bt 2dae she going overseas again.thn he nxt wk need 2 work le lerh.hais sumore work s far.sians e maid go drop her towel in e toilet thn it diok choke lah.thn whn ama ask she go sae is me n my bro put 1=.= gou lao tao loh.whr gt we s bo liao throw e towel inside de.luki ama blif us sia.thn in e end she confessed it ws she herself throw it in can.wtf she almost gt both of us into trouble..no wonder ama sae she cn can tu xue.he damn cute seh haven bath thn sumore sms sae he singing.hahas gona pack my tings liao.bb

2006-12-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

met him at e stadium 2dae.in e end he late cus stomach ache..lols thn decided not 2 jog.yay! thn go walkwalk walk all e wae from stadium to bedok thn go eat..thn aft tt walk bac thn tired le s whn to e park there rest.there e scenery nice loh..hahas thn go e swing there plae.walao haven grow up sia.thn whn we playing e 2 kids kept lking n giving us tt kind of smile.urgh make until we vry uncomfortable loh.duno shud run or not=.= thn went 2 e big drain there.they vandalized almost e whole wall inside bt all vry nice loh.thn went 2 find sth 2 eat loh.e oyster s rotten de can.thn sumore tt stupid uncle oni gif 3 oyster loh.walao thn in e pic put s many oyster 4 wt.bai mei har.thn aft tt he go show his ba hen loh.its lyk vry long leh.hais.=X thn aft tt go hm sleep le!lalala~

2006-12-05T18:03:00.000+08:00

went out wid him ystd.paiseh i ws late again can.XD sumore late until bout 45 mins liao.hahas thn cus of me we arrived late at simei.thn watched him plae soccer loh.n lyk wt he said,he din let me feel left out.XD bt i ws bored s called deb ask her cum down.thn aft tt he plae until his leg pain s i fu ta..thn we went 2 e community centre w8 4 him change liao thn went 2 food court there eat.hahas thn go buy drinks loh.he go mix e drink until e taste funnyfunny de.bt still ok lah.thn we shou qian shou go walkwalk.thn saw sum1 leh.jz hope he dun tell ni1 lohx.thn went we walking e kfc there scully got coins drop from e sky=.= thn he go pick up bt duno hu's 1 thn keep loh. =X hahas thn funny loh he go wei wo e drink thn he purposely make me.urgh! hahas thn go ntuc buy sweets.tsktsk he sweet tooth sia.thn walk finish liao he sent me home.he lah hu ask him lost bus card.s ma fan haf 2 buy e mrt card.lols thn on e train we tok lohx.thn walk all e wae 2 my house.thn there got tree i go make him again.hahas.thn he send me 2 my house bhind.lols thn lata he sms sae his ama vry cute go tell him sae she saw us. hahas thn he diok shock bt in e end she playing nia.tsktsk..=p his whole family noe bout us leh..bt they nvr object.i duno wt 2 sae can.bt i jz hope tt he's true loh.its lyk im enjoying evry moment wid him bt stil keeping a distance.its vry xin ku 4 me de can..hais, hw i hope i cud read his heart..

2006-12-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

went to ms chin's wedding ystd..i arrived late.caused jo,jess,glenda,alicia,kai siang w8.psps..hahas thn in e end no choice we took cab over.thn e taxi drive shortchange kai siang by 80 cents! cn buy newspaper loh X( thn ms chin ws beautiful! hahas esp in her wedding dress sia.wah thn got sum1 hoh..can 4get to go ms chin's wedding sia.tsktsk thn met him.thn we all go take bus 24 to punggol inter.thn aft tt w8 4 him drink finish liao thn we all go take bus 83 go compass point.thn go there walkwalk thn eat dinner.thn funny sia he go there scully s careless.tsktsk..lols thn went walk awhile thn go back take 83 again.thn we drop wrng stop sia.thn cus he not enuf coins thn we decided to walk all e wae 2 e inter.by thn oredi around 8 le.thn i plae prank on him loh.go pull e leaf thn it hit his face.hahas thn he go take revenge ;) thn walk until vry tired.thn on e train we slept,my head on leaning on him.=X thn aft tt go home 9 sth sia.luki nvr diok dad scold.thn go call wrngly call his mom sia.X.X s tired.hehex i rili enjoyed my dae =D

2006-11-30T12:46:00.000+08:00

he asked me e question again can. i jz said tt i needed more tym.duno wt im feeling inside. its jz a jumbled up mixture of feelings.haix. i jz need 2 answer tis question.do i lyk him anot? my ans: i duno.=.= its hard,2 make a decision cus of his past. wt if it repeats again? wt if.. im hurt again? bt in my heart, there's a little hope tt he will change.or mayb, prove tt he's not lyk we they said of him.oh ya. n i gained a son.hahas nw im a gan ma le! XD

2006-11-30T11:44:00.000+08:00

ystd fun sia.mz thanks evry1 hu wished me happy bdae! =D dad s angry s my msgs overshoot 200+ sia..worse thn b4..hais. thn made worse whn i stomachpain..diok nagging from sum1 loh.hahas he nagnagnag nonstop. =X thn lata go rest..thn beta le..hahas thn he funny lah go bk christmas dae..sae wt 'i dun care christmas dae i oredi bk wid u.'lols. sian ama went overseas thn evrydae either eat noodles or porridge.cus my maid duno wt 2 cook.thn pa n ma oso go work.ystd pa n ma oso gt work lah s i stayed at home. thn at nyt aft mom cum home thn cut e bdae cake.hehe is coffee 1..bt duno y i no appetite.i cnt w8 2 c ms chin in her wedding gown!hehe..n ystd deb nvr sms me i tot she 4get me liaox.bt in e end turned out tt she ws w8ting 4 11.59 thn send me e msg thn special mah.haha! i wrnged her liao.paiseh hoh.thks 4 ur msg! XD

2006-11-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

gona sleep liaox.zZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZzzz.

2006-11-24T16:34:00.000+08:00

ystd ws e opening.jiamin said 2 arrive at 12 bt i arrived at 12.50.=X hahas thn whn i reach liao jiamin missing, bt saw garykor.thn tok loh.thn gt pa party aft e food arrived.sian deb haven cum thn i alone.actually nt totally alone lah.bt lyk no one im vry close to sia.oni garykor loh.thn finally deb arrived.thn go buy bbtea thn i buy 4 zhaowei kor.treat him lohx since last tym he treat me.hahas thn whn cum bac *his mom go call me.urgh thn sumore i duno hu lohx.thn she ask alot of questions.lols bt lata he apologized lah.=D sian thn aft wnt to pass e bbtea to andric.thn go av liao..thn i got a minnie pen.it ws nice lohx..silver colour,lks damn nice =) michelle arrive by thn oredi lah. thn we go hall prepare liao.thn saw e guy hu teased me on e bus, stil smile at me sia =.= tym flies loh b4 i knew it oredi finish liao.thn me n michelle ran away.actually we tot tt we had escaped frm mr gan.bt hu noes lata he appeared n asked us 2 do work again.hais X/ i ws damn glad tt pervert din came niwaes. got enuf frm him liao cans.thn aft e funny part ws e chocolates highlighted word "why chocolates are beta thn sex?" =X not saying nitink hahas bt seems lyk e tchers jz lurved it evn mrs neo oso cum lohx.XD thn aft tt meet michelle ,yeye n selene.thn on e bus yeye n me kept toking.thn funny sia tok until e mian bao tingy..lols thn went to food court budget eat lah.no money liaox.i oni 2.90 n yeye oni 4.10.s she gave me her 10cents..hehe thn michelle lended me $2.yay finally got money to eat! =)) thn yeye oni drink nia.sae tt she drink full liao though im not sure. thn went walkwalk..thn funny loh we walk round n round at tm thn aft tt we go century square walk round n round again..thn whn we reach century square i saw tt npcc guy again.n he called my name n thn lk away loh.tink i nvr c bt i saw his lips moving sia..s lame can! hahahahaha! thn i tot i saw mx. or isit? hmm duno thn go eat ice cream.walao e ice cream man go tease me! wth thn yeye noe thn she qi fu wo go ask me take.thn i kena bullied! rah! 1st tym take e empty cone =.= thn second tym he dun gimme e ice cream. walao thn aft 2nd tym i s damn pissed liao jz walk away.thn yeye go take he give..unfair loh! hahas bt funny sia.evry1 ws laffing at me 4 god's sake..=.= fuming wid anger.argh thn whn home loh.had alot of fun lah..sianz tt bathe liao n zzzzz..

2006-11-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

weird sia.ws on e bus hm aft buying bks wid dad.thn aft tt gt a group of npcc ppl come up lah.bt e oni ppl i knew ws garykor n shawn.thn aft tt i heard sum1 callin my name.turned bac bt cnt c clearly.oni cn tell tt its one guy whom i duno..thn aft tt they went down thn tt guy go sae"bye amanda!"thn i ignore lah. thn he said again.thn i turn.thn i jz stared loh.dun evn noe tt person leh..bt paiseh cus he kept saying bye n i nvr rply.lols blame it on my bad eyesight bah.i ws stil trying to figure out hw he lk lyk seh.hahas nxt tym shall b more polite.=)

2006-11-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

ws in a damn confused state 2dae..wnt sch in e mornin thn during e bus journey bac i ws tinking all e wae..haix i stil duno wt will my answer b..bt i jz realized tt there's no such ting as a perfect relationship.sooner or later will haf some diff or arguements de.bt whether e relationship will lst depends on each ppl's understanding.if a couple quarrels n both r unwilling to gif wae or own up to their mistakes, thn its sure gona end liao loh.until nw i jz dun understand hw some ppl tink..whn they quarel,they nvr evn try 2 patch n jz break up liao..isit 2 escape frm all tis or isit jz tt their feelings r no longer there.wteva,their words dun mean a tink whn tis hapens.cus none of it is true.=) sian loh.i stil cnt gt n answer.wanted to take up e phone n call deb.ask 4 advice. bt thn decided tt tis has 2 b my choice.bt shud i or shud i nt?i asked 4 tym 2 consider n he told me he'll w8.bt wt shud i sae?i rili duno hw long i'll take 2 answer his question loh.my choice r alwaes messy n rush.i dun tink whn i wana do sth.s tis tym, im gona tink throughly.if he cn prove 2 me tt he is true,thn i guess its alryt giving him a chance tis tym.=D

2006-11-20T12:05:00.000+08:00

sian nth 2 do!!! ystd diok scolding frm dad cus i ws playing wid piggy bro.. walao jz bcus i WAS bigger s he scolded me. i ws TOTALLY pissed sia but i had my revenge by pinching piggy bro when my father nt lking...lols thn when i pinch him he gave me a funny look tt made me laugh.SIAO. hahas =D

2006-11-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

continued smsing him 2dae.. thn found out sumtink (dun ask me.i promised nt 2 tell) ok i ws shock kae..if any other ppl heard tis myt tot he came frm e mental hospital. =X bt duno lah, best not 2 gif ni comments, hahs.2dae wnt guitar lah..luki uncle lim nvr scold me or wteva. in fact,he din evn notice my presence.hehe thn aft tt go home nth 2 do.. thn almost whole dae sms loh..die lah gona overshoot de..confirm! haix bt nvm.. thn call him wake him up..thn tt tym plaeing e cat game on9 thn vry funny gt e meowmeow sound..hahas i won my piggy bro in e game! hahas thn actually wan jie his hp sms de..bt thn he congming include gst double e price.s nt worth it loh..lols thn i stick to smsing frm my hp. =D mom gimme $30 $20 to return to deb $10 to save.. i gona use it 4 my hp bill! lalalas jz eat finissh nw blOated xD

2006-11-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

went 2 e chalet on 13..thn met wid wq,weilin,jo n yeye thn we go deb's house put bag thn go buy satay..evry1 damn excited loh..thn came bac deb oredi reach home from band liao.. thn deb,me n her mom go book in.. thn bk bbq tingy..thn aft tt weilin they all arrive lah.. thn prepare e bbq ting thn i called dad cum..thn ppl start arriving loh.. thn at nyt wq n me tell ghost story, thn play waterbomb at e park, thn weijiekor n me play wid matchstick..thn at nyt hanwen kor cum lah..cus late liao s deb ask her parents go fetch him..thn he gimme a present lah..ws lyk quite nice loh (a bottle wid some notes)thks hoh.. hahax thn in e end take pic thn e bed break.. walao evry1 on e bed diok shock lohx..lan bed sia..cnt even support 4 ppl..=.= thn in e end we tried fixing e bed bac.. actually cn lahx.. bt in e end weilin step on it loh thn e bed drop again.. thn cnt fixed bac liao lah..thn until 2sth we go out..lols sumore go coffeeshop there drink coffee..vry fun sia..thn went bac around 3 sth thn i nap awhile lahx.. thn aft tt yeye n company go out left us nia thn play card game..thn i keep putting e wrong card n losing..sian loh.. got 3 of e 2s oso cn die sia..lan lyk shyt..lols luki nvr gamble or i bankrupt liaox.. thn nxt morning nth 2 do lohx.. we din plan properly bahx..bt since its e 1st tym, we cn do better again loh..s jie u shudnt b affected s badly by tis lah..let it b lyk a comment lohx.. thn in e end went out 4 breakfast thn aft tt we go buy beach ball plae..lols funny sia we play inside mah thn evry1 sit down plae..haha thn poor ting wei jie n rachel sit in e mid diok hit..=X thn aft tt we bbq e food loh.. we din bk pit s bbq on e floor..lols thn aft tt go swimming..i duno hw 2 swim thn deb bcum my trainer.. thn finally i dare to submerge my head inside =.= last tym pri skool my dad push my head inside i cry sia..hahas thn we got go cycling..thn cus our results ws out thn i ws praying hard nt 2 get in2 a or b loh..yay i rili nvr! sumore same class as deb n wq sia.. thn *she cry loh..cus nvr get in2 e class she desired..bt ting is tt whn *she ws crying,wq ws anweing her loh.. thn she hao xin mei hao bao keep saying we all thn at 1st deb sit in frnt of tv keep quiet lah..thn whn she scold wq deb cnt tahan n scold her sia..gd seh evry1 clap hands..hahax thn in e end she cry again loh..haix thn wq anwei ta thn deb n me aft send yeye thy all thn went to foodcourt there cus i got gastric.. thn aft eat liao we buy pinapple rice 4 weilin n wq n chocolate..hehe thn aft they eat we go swim again thn finally evry1 line up 2 bathe..na shi ta shuo chu na ji ju hua..thn aft tt we go out buy drinks n sum food loh..in e end vry tired sia evry1 go sleep..thn i siaosiao de san gen ban ye scully wake up..thn go keep my hp loh.. thn go sleep again.. thn deb hen ke ai sleep lyk pig..hehe =X thn morning deb 1st wake up..actualy i oredi awake bt jia zhuang zai shui jiao.. thn wq call thn i wake up.. thn my hair qiaoqiao de..argh! thn i go brush teeth thn weilin make sandwich.. thn we go shou shi dong xi while eating.. thn finally we go bk out le.. thn came home chiong 2 bathe thn go bac 2 skool again check results..i happy lah go take bk list thn go home..bt ama angry wid me 4 not studying hard enuf..thn nagnagnag alot lohx.. sian..

2006-11-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

yay mom n dad bought all e utensils liao..hahs spend a long time choosing my clothes..argh no enuf shorts! ystd uncle came over n brought e dragon tiger gate(4get e name liaox)thn ws watch until nyt..ws nt s interesting cus i guessed out almost all e plot..=.= thn i dare not sleep sia.. thks 2 sum1 go send me e commit suicide e gruesome pic..urgh wana strangle her..hope evryting goes well tmr n evry1 haf fun lohx..wahahas..i wan listen to ghost stories!!!sian lah my message is goin 2 overshoot if i dun control liao..bt whn ppl sms i jz haf 2 rply..lols at least i nt as bad as ystd's xiao hai bu ben e tom go chuck up hw many thousand smses ryt.. xp i din noe wt 2 sae whn he go sms sae he smoking loh..dun c e joke of it sia..thn in e end lamely rplied ''smoking is not healthy de lerhx'' hahahaha! piggy bro is a maple freak sia..play frm morning until jz nw 4pm thn gimme e comp..tsktsk..gonna eat otah 4 dinner lata..yay!

2006-11-11T14:31:00.000+08:00

jz nw piggy bro irritate me by pinching me..sumore s pain sia..thn finally cannot tahan we both play pillow bolster fight..thn i whack him wid e bolster..hahax thn he kept whacking my head =.= thn lunch tym eat french fries (handmade by ama), bread, sausage, egg wid coffee n honey..hehe i mixed both of them 2gether..not s bad lah.. tis morning wake up at 5 sth cus mosquito bite me thn ichy..thn i stoopid sia run all e way to my parents complain cus they nvr on air-con..=.=hahax thn aft tt mom n dad went out lahx..thn blif it or not piggy bro started playing comp..thn i fell asleep thn woke up piggy bro still playing..walao addicted sia..thn i go nagnagnag him..lols..cnt blif it sia thn aft i nag he go stand up n shake his butt at me.=.= hahahaha! thn deb jz nw call me we discuss bout e chalet.. thn she told me bout him thn gimme a damn bad impression bout him sia..i shall keep my distance.. wahahas.. chalet on monday! there will b s much fun in celebration of deb,jo,me n iry birthday sumore! lalalas..hmm.. shud i continue to rply his msg?argh whn e tym come thn tink lah! hahs mom n dad gonna buy e utensils.. deb gonna change e pasir ris one 2 downtown east one.. sians, gonna nap le..hahs

2006-11-10T09:56:00.000+08:00

went out wid deb ystd..thn actually agree 2 meet at 3.30 bt i left home at 3.30 cus my aunt nag at me bring umbrella..lols made deb w8..thn in e end me n andric both late..sumore on same train sia bt duno nia..thn whn to collect e ice lemon tee card thn makan at foodcourt..no money liao loh s haf 2 budget.. thn i ws lking 4 e hairband..found it lahx bt it ws lyk cost $7.. walao s ex sia.. thn andric took my card bt i duno loh! s kukuhead sia muz w8 until i eat finish thn ws lyk "eh?wear's my card arh?"=.= thn went 4 bubbletea.. thn deb strawberry i grape n andric peach..thn went bac lah..thn on e bus at first we were vry happy toktoktok thn lata andric ask 2 c deb's hp thn he bcum sulky..thn e whole journey lidat..sian loh..duno lah i ws feeling slightly pissed off..ok he ws nt happy cus deb had many guy's contact inside..i ws glad he apologized cus its not her fault loh..if she got flirt thn sae lah..bt she nvr flirt at all loh..whn u lidat she ws lyk tearful oredi lerhx..felt slightly guilty cus i din do anytink.. onli sat there quietly n kept my mouth shut..thn whn reach home my mom said she saw e hairband i wan n it cost 3 sumtink.. thn i ws lyk "huh?y nvr buy?half price loh!" thn mom said she will w8 until e price drop..haix lks lyk i'll haf 2 w8 until hw long loh..hahax thn at tt tym sum1 smsed bac..hahax chat 4 awhile lahx..they won! lalalas okie im mad..byebye

2006-11-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

met wid deb, iry, wq, weilin and jolene.. thn sae wana meet at gym thn i tot skool gym thn turned out 2 b e gym 4 senior citizen's exercise place..=.= hahax thn i ws wearing e santa shirt! =D thn go discuss bout e chalet thn evry1 started calling..wahahas.. thn eat.. wah e noodle damn spicy sia i ws lyk crying le lohx.. thn in e end wq, iry n me cnt tahan go chiong 4 drinks..hahax thn go deb's house collect money cus not enuf thn go downtown east there book chalet.. thn tt person sae muz b above 18.. thn evry1 ws lyk walao we reach le loh.. thn in e end deb go call her mother thn book loh.. yay! happy sia.. but not enuf shorts..n oso goin 2 find slippers..lols cnt blif is nxt wk nia lohx.. shall go tease michelle.. hurhur ok nth2 sae liao byebye ^^

2006-11-03T10:04:00.000+08:00

we r planning 2 book a chalet!!! hehe vry excited..piggy bro's mood ystd damn good sia.. duno wt happen.. bt major change loh.. last tym i tok 2 him onli he scold.. thn ystd stil cn laf sia..=.= yay our bdae coming!!! deb's one is 23 nov, jolene's one is 26 nov,my one is 29 nov, iry's one is 5 dec.. lalala..damn bored at home..cnt go out late cus my neighbour jz pass away.. thn my grandma forbid us 2 go out at nyt..haix.. thn got one dream sia.. damn weird lohx..omg hw cud tis happen? its lyk.. wtf!? hahax..stupid sia.. if come true i cn go jump off a building.. lols.. nw lking at deb's baby pic..cute sia.. bt imagine her in short hair? =X hehe.. off 2 find some drinks!

2006-10-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

went out wid kor on wed.. walao made me w8 1hr 4 him.. gd larhx.. thn evrytink ta qing de.. bt i damn diok shock whn he held my hands loh.. ws lyk vry uncomfortable..=x lols thks 4 evrytink niwae.. ermx ystd got bac results lah.. drop lah evrytink..confirm go c class de.. bt whn read out nt s bad larhx..lols 1c,1a e rest all bs loh.. thn saw her larhx.. i duno wt 2 sae.. onli cn sae, his taste damn bad sia..opps.. thn deb agree ^^.. okies gtg eat le.. madness sia.. i haven got over e shock.. haix ok burbyes

2006-10-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

i ws wrng all tis while.. held on tightly 2 e hope tt tis wudnt end 4 me..bt it did.he told me tt it he cnt continue tis relationship le. n whn i asked y, he said he wan single.. im in a mess nw.. sort of cried n cried till my eyes were swollen.. sort of stupid ryt. im s stupid. y cry 4 sum1 lyk him?he nvr tink about my feelings. if he wan single, y stead wid me? y make me fall 4 him b4 saein he wanna break? i feel lyk shouting n shouting n shouting till i drop down, all dead beat n exhausted bt my troubles gone..we've been 2gt 4 51 daes n i cherished it.. evry single dae u cn bet im missing him. i've nvr regret been with him. he said sry. bt cn sry solve evryting? cn sry relieve my pain n ur sin? im s disappionted. bt im letting go. i'll get out of tis mess and go on wid lyf. its not worth staying bhind 4 u. 4eva etched in my mind, 21oct06 >end of our fairytale.

2006-10-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

sort of funny jz nw.. ws toking 2 vicky on9..ex hgs larhx..wah she 4get me sia..until vry long thn she finally sae " u from same class as me in p5 isit? " dotx.. finally she rmbed.. nvm..still e same old gerl as b4.. damn stm lorhx..hahax.. ystd ws funny.. i sat on deb's lap n she told me hu is *he.. ok ermx.. he's ok bt totally not my type.. lols thn we go debate hu's e most shuai guy.. jz saein 4 fun cus we both got stead liaox..hahax thn i said tt guy shuai bt she sae e other guy shuai..thn she sae my one ugly n i sae her one ugly.. thn she go call her yeye 2 judge hw they look.. thn she go choose e curly hair fat guy..=.= 4 fun one larhx..hahax.. wah sumore sae tt curly hair more luck lerh.. i wun even reconsider loh.. deb shong ge ni barhx! =X thn in e end wo qing deb n pam drink ice lemon tea.. thn jiamin tip me 50cent thn pam go treat us noodle thn tcher go treat us drink..lols lyk almost everyting treat sia.. thn aft skool went wid deb 2 his house.. thn by thn vry tired larhx..s my attitude ws lyk.. damn pai larh.. sry worhx.. thn i saw e hamster! s cute.. thn plaed games..deb plaed playstation.. thn aft tt plae card game.. thn me n deb lost.. walao he pro loh.. thn in e end we kena tickled.. thn i took deb's pic.. got 1 hoh esp funny de..hu wan c ask me..hehe =X.. thn went bac by cab loh cus deb got piano.. thn i went bac loh.. reach home quite late larhx..aunty lucy came over lerh..vry paiseh cus i come home she goin off liao.. thn jz nw i got headache sia.. went bac e bus thn vry pain.. thn i cnt focus.. lyk goin 2 faint lidat..thn i go home eat liao rest loh.. actually shuo hao jin tian recess yao qu na bian ke shi hou lai mei you qu..wo you yi dian shi wang larhx..yi jing ji tian le lorhx.. thn skool closing liao sumore.. haix nvm larhx.. shall w8 4 monday.. byes (pics r memories of hgs.. hehe =.= bo liao s jz put lorhx)

2006-10-17T19:27:00.000+08:00

damn pissed off 2dae..he still got tok larh..bt wtf he nvr rply my message.. n tts WAT matters.. duno larh..i've wronged him once.. n tts jz few daes ago.. i dun wan 2 wrng him again.. mayb he rili gt sumtink on lerh?haix i dun wana tok about it or b reminded le.. im gonna lead lyf as if nth has happened..IM OUT OF TIS MESS! life's going on

2006-10-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

tings whn on quite well 4 me 2dae..hahax 1st i made hanwen kor qing wo gen deb he bubbletea..2nd i gained another kor! wan noe hu ask me ^^..thn oso my bdae he goin 2 qing ke..promise de hohx..hahax.. ermx oh ya jz nw went 2 pam's house..ok its lyk funny sia..her bro go buy vanguard sheet hoh.. thn i go the study room wid rachel.. thn we all w8 lah..thn whn they come bac her bro dare nt come in call pam go out take..thn evrytym pam opn e door he run away..thn i tinking..shud b i scared or him ryt..instead is he scared of me..=_= thn in e end we finish quite fast larh..even without megan ^^.. =X thn in e end ate chicken pie n drink 1cup water n 1 cup green tea can de..wah full sia..thn carry e plate go basin her bro there..thn funny sia he c us diok shock thn walk away face e wall..we laf loh..thn in e end going home le..i cnt control my lafter thn choke on my drink..lols s paiseh e drink almost spill out thn my face s damn red..hahax..thn went home.. thn made wanton wid aunt..den didi gimme e whole mentos..y s gd lerh?cus e mentos cover break one big hole =_=..lols ok nth 2 write le..burbyes

2006-10-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

[ ]u have got f9 grade 4 maths EVERYTIME
[X]u alwaes do last min hmks in class
[X]u use ur hp to text ur frenx in class
[ ]ur phone gt confiscated b4
[ ]u listen 2 ur mp3,cd player in class
[X]u sleep in class
[ ]u curse tchers
[X]u are alwaes late 4 xtra classes
[X]u doodle on tables
[ ]u make out in class
[ ]u r rebellious wid sum tchers
[X]u alwaes hand up work late
[X]u make fun of e nerds n geeks
[X]u have broken skool rulex
[X]u alwaes dun have e correct bks
[X]u dun take notes
[X]recess is ur fav part of skool
[X]u hang out aft skool
[X]u lie 2 ur tchers bout hwks
[X]u tell ur parents tt u dun haf hwk,whn u actually do
[ ]u haf made sum1 cry in skool
[X]u copied hwks b4
[X]u threw away hwks b4 n lie tt u din receive it
[X]u laf at e way sum tchers walk
[X]u haf been late a couple of tyms

i am 72% bad in skool..
count e no of crosses u haf n multiply by 4..lols
meeting siying n jas lata.. need 2 chiong liao!!! burbyes ^^

2006-09-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

read her blog jz nw.. i felt guilty.. as in i realized i did not tink whn i said wt i said.. it muz haf hurt her alot larhx.. very sry hoh.. im being selfish here..cus i only tot of myself whn i said tt i prefered alan.. its lyk only a choice of looks n all larh..mayb i dun understand..lyk wt she said of how andric treat her..WO MING TIAN YAO XIANG TA QING KOU SUO DUI BU QI!!!hahax ok late le..burbyes..

2006-09-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

thiS isNt a peRfeCt woRlD.. pEopLe dO geT hUrT.. yoU smiLe wHeN yoU feEl liKe crYiN.. yOu acT LikE yoUrE oKay wheN yoUrE faLLiN aPaRt iNsiDe.. and you LeT iT gO- yOu moVe oN.. bCoS thEreS noThiN elSe yoU cAn dO..~tAkEn fRoM sUm1's blog.. hehe hope u dun mind.. i bo liao s jz put tis loh..wahahas!

2006-09-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

monkey sent mi home 2dae.. lols he go ask turkey follow loh... thn i ask deb (wo de hao jie mei!) thn lyk evry1 s tense loh.. thn whn go on2 e bus..ermx i saw sumone swinging at e door dere.. dun tell mi tts monkey..=_= wahahas thn i ws lyk walked 1st loh thn i turn bac scully he bhind mi.. wa i diok shock..bt our eyes met thn ws lyk..errrrr..ok i jz cudnt take my eyes off him.. urgh! enuf of tis er xin stuff.. hmm on e journey turkey n monkey kept toking.. luki deb ws dere make mi feel more secure..thn aft tt deb pang seh.. sobsobs.. boohoo! monkey n turkey were lyk kept changing seats lah.. thn monkey sit bhind mi thn i almost e whole journey dare nt move sia.. stiff lyk mad.. thn turkey go sit lyk walao his leg on e chair.. its lyk yalah he's abeng kind bt it rili lk damn disgusting loh.. luki monkey nvr lidat.. wahahas.. thn turkey finally sit bhind wid monkey thn they offer mi sweet.. i no appetite.. thn lata turkey ws lyk "hey i noe y u nvr move in! cus e seat dirty!" thn i laf thn turkey go shout.."wah!monkey jealous liao! " siao loh thn ws lyk they go plae their handphone music bhind my ear.. thn i ignore them thn they kept calling.. i still ignore thn they go blow wind..walao! s..eeeeeeeeeee lyk tt kind of itchy feeling..lols thn finally they shift 2 e seat bside mi.. i nvr tok lerh.. y s blockhead lah mi.. thn monkey n turkey lyk toking on e phone lah thn they take turns mah.. thn duno turkey go ask monkey treaten tis guy cus he sae e guy molest him or sth..wahahas! thn they said all e bad words.. luki deb nt dere..im nt telling wt they sae..thn in e end reaching liao i go tell monkey..thn i went first.. walao eh i lyk log sia cus scared i fell down or sae wrong ting.. thn i keep quiet.. thn aft tt we go down thn i lyk more relax lah.. thn turkey ws lyk "wa u live here arh?" thn i shake my head.. thn he sae"then u live bhind?" thn i shake my head again.. thn i lyk quickly walk lah thn monkey slowly walked by my side.. thn turkey lyk kept pointing 2 wrong houses n kept complaining loh..thn he sae i live s far next tym he dowan come liao.. rah! thn finallly reach my house thn monkey ws lyk point 2 my house n gif me e questioning look.. thn i said ya..hahax he s ***** loh!!! XD thn aft tt he go bac thn ws lyk i lk thn he lk thn turkey bo liao go sae "aiyo y u still miss her arh?" rah i feel lyk strangling him loh! thn monkey jz nw ask mi if he cn go home wid mi 2mr.. thn i gt src.. haix thn lyk cus iry goin thn i scared no points oso s i decided to go loh.. bt pang seh monkey i lyk vry uncomfortable..sry hoh.. next tym barh! hahax ok goin sleep liao.. bb

2006-09-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

my bro read my sms..n he found out bout *ahem..dang it loh! if he dare sae out 2 mom or dad i gona whack him up.. hmm 2dae s stupid lerh.. accidentally call monkey.. hehe s paiseh.. bt he din mind..hahax..im stuck at home din do nitink.. actually saw those bear e keychain i wanted 2 find his bdae.. bt e colour rili sux.. lols s i jz nihw choose e colour i lyk.. which is erm.. january..?lols.. 29 jan sumore..wahahax.. thn went 2 my grandma house ystd.. i cleared my junk.. mom said tt e tings myt b thrown away liao.. haix sad.. thn grandma.. she lk s old n weak liao.. lyk hunch more oso..thn i ws s glad i came.. got 2 taste her food again..lols..found my stupid old ring which oredi rust liao.. bt still cn keep as sourvenior hoh ryt? hahax..thn aunt oso gimme two keychain..s cute sia lyk koreankorean look one.. uncle nt at home.. bt e house more messy liao.. thn i used uncle's deodorant.. lols =X bro ws lyk gimme tt stupid shocked lk..lols.. thn monkey at tt tym sms..haix.. sumore gt e "i miss u alot lei" e word dere.. my bro laf lyk donkey.. hpmm! i crazy liao.. go find e huanzhugege song go listen.. thn send 2 deb she kept on hahahahaha.. lols.. gt more ppl join council liao.. i wonder hu? bt nicholas sae tmr myt b bzy.. ok ermx nth 2 tok liao.. bubuayz

2006-09-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

i've been tinking of tis question 4 sumtym.. deb had asked if i lyk or loved him.. thn i cudnt answer..lols.. bt in e end i concluded tt e feeling's 2 strong to be lyk..ok i tink i did rili love him.. bt i din wan to sae cus vry pasieh.. hahax.. =X thn 2dae whn i ws lyk doing duty.. thn i saw him.. thn i hid bhind khairul..which is a damn stupid ting 2 do.. esp when it was a guy.. e scenario ws lyk.. monkey saw mi, went out of queue, choked (ermx duno if it ws delibrate or not.. lols), scaring khairul, who move bac, n step on my leg.. oww sux man.. damn pain sia.. thn my whole face went red.. (I LOOK S KUKU!OMG!!!) thn whn i turn bac monkey wid his fren in e general office.. omg loh thn i ws lyk want to smile bt trying nt to smile.. i oredi cn imagine deb saein "aiyo! u love crazy liao!" lols.. gt council meeting 2dae.. thn deb n mi went to buy bubbletea.. thn we went bac go find andric.. thn aft tt i went 4 council meeting..ws late lah..thn mr sim start toking, thn followed by fellow councilors n peers.. thn mr bernard.. omg loh his tok lasted bout at least more thn half an hour.. thn finallly mr sim tok abit thn let us off liao.. i ws pissed cus they kept shooting questions at e peer thn make until jia wen almost cry.. haix.. thn aft tt monkey tot sumtink happen to mi cus i nvr rply.. lols thn he go sae fridae pei wo hui jia.. hahax..aiya.. i dare nt admit at 1st bt nw muz rili thk deb 4 plaein e MATCHMAKER.. lols! i cnt w8 4 fri! =X bt scared lata i fell down or do sth stupid.. (i still cnt 4get *ahem! spraying her white shirt wid bubbletea e last tym we went out wid her ex) ermx pls dun get angry..hehe.. lols.. if i lidat i duno wear to hide my face liao..hmm monkey pls dun lost ur wae hoh.. lata i need to send to home instead..wahahas.. tired le..goin sleep..

2006-09-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT MY MAPLE ACC KENA HACK!!! IF I FIND OUT HU TT DAMN ASSHOLE IS HE DIE.. CURSE HIM LAH! ****

2006-09-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

stupid stomach cramps.. make mi cnt sleep ystd.. thn i buried e hp under my bed.. ws lyk w8ting n hoping 4 him 2 sms.. he did.. hahax.. seems lyk we both tot tt each of us were bzy s we din sms.. n monkey go pierce his mouth! eeks.. bt nw close liao e hole..lols.. thn at tt tym.. i ws tinking.. hw dif were we? will we last? bt evrytym whn his sms came, i 4got all tis n in my mind, i ws onli tinking of hw luki i ws.. jz pure hapiness.. 2dae whn i woke up still gt cramp..my ama go scold mi sae drink 2 much cold drinks.. walao i start of tis week oredi stop liao loh.. nw doing my chinese hw.. muz find poem n pic.. thn i ws lyk tinking inside.. hw 2 find li bai's picture? or r we supposed to find e real picture? *confused.. my bro's giving mi hell by counting e number of hours im taking to do my work..rah! ermx.. tts all..hahax

2006-09-04T19:40:00.000+08:00

9.10am- dad ws send to the hospital.. he cudnt get up though he ws awake.. had to call ambulance..
we arrived in e hospital.. dad ws under observation..grandma told us nt to disturb dad s we w8ted outside..bt tings still e same..dad still giddy n having cold sweat.. thn dad ws warded.. we went to visit him.. thn he saw mi n my bro s sad.. he ws lyk trying to laf.. lyk trying make us tink nth ws wrng wid him.. bt it came out s muffled n weak.. thn it ws lyk came over as a blow to mi.. cus he ws rarely sick..thn alwaes wud b him taking care of us.. hw cud we expect it to b e other wae round? at tt tym i felt god ws being selfish n unfair.. duno..we cried.. i ws lyk trying to hold it bt in e end tears jz flowed.. thn dad asked us nt to cry n go bac.. nw i cn onli hope he gets well..haix.. bt in e end.. though he din succeed in cheering mi up wid his messages, his nic did s.. lols wo xiang dui ta shuo.. wo ai ni! hahax =X oso muz nt 4get hanwen kor, deb jie, andric n ber 4 cheering mi up oso! xiexie ni men! =)

2006-09-02T13:35:00.000+08:00

ystd i ws down wid slight flu.. tot it ws nth s i ignored taking flu medicine.. den at nyt whn i came home frm my tamp house.. my flu suddenly bcame vry bad.. my whole nose ws blocked thn i sneeze until i cried.. thn my eyes turned red.. thn fell asleep.. sneeze until my stomach pain sia.. bt tt ws one of my most memorable dae eva.. i'll nvr 4get it ws tcher's dae nyt.. wahahas.. will b teling deb lata.. i dun plan to tell nione cept her yet.. dowan it to b such a big matter.. my dad ws feeling giddy 2dae.. lked quite serious to mi..he ws unbalanced.. im sort of worried.. s breakfast i had to cook 4 myself.. mom n bro ws out.. hope dad gets well soon.. muz stop him frm eating oily food liao! i dare nt evn tink of wt will happen if his xin zhang bao fa again.. haix : _ ;

2006-08-30T17:50:00.000+08:00

haix.. gt bac my stupid maths results 2dae.. i failed loh! wtf.. thn luki my other tests overall is 80%.. s from wt jolene sae i passed..cnt w8 4 tmr.. last dae of exam sia.. geog.. hope i do well.. science is the subject i worried bout.. wt if i fail lerh? cn go zhuang qiang le.. aces dae sia.. my fren told mi her skool let thn reach skool at 7.55.. wah s luki loh! lols.. i end of yr muz chiong liao.. praying tt i do well 4 e paper tmr.. >_<

2006-08-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

jz gave a call to my grandma(mom's side) jz nw..i cried aft spoking to her..inside i ws feeling s guilty and full of regret.. mayb at tt tym i shudn haf made tt decision.. bt hw cud i noe it wud all end up lyk tis? den evn whn i made tt decision, i shud haf at least came n visited her sumtym.. bt i haf nt.. its been almost 6 months i nvr saw her oredi.. i kept telling myself tt next tym i'll go n visit her.. bt in e end it kept dragging on n on n on.. 2dae i din go bcus i ws e onli one haven pass up my home econs n im suppose to pass up by 2dae.. s i cnt go.. bt i cnt.. i jz feel s guilty.. i hate myself.. grandma's health has deproved.. i heard frm my aunt.. bt whn i tok to her on e phone.. she ws still.. asking mi to take care n all despite her health..she ask mi to study hard.. thn inside i ws tinking.. haf i done tis? she had taken s much care of mi whn i ws young..i duno.. i cnt go on..

2006-08-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

im having 3 mixed feelings nw.. in my life i've met diff ppl hu made diff impression on my lyf.. s far, deb, iry, wq, jas n siying (jas n siying r hgs frenz) r e 5 ppl im most comfortable wid.. in our gerlz skool, lyf ws totally wild.. hahaz.. bt nw its ova.. i cud rmb jas telling us tt guyz r morons n gerlz cud do without thm cus they spoil evrytink 4 us.. hahaz.. bt it sumwt sounds logical.. lyk whn i argued wid him again.. y is he tryin to spoil evrytink whn im trying to patch tings up?sumtyms i feel lyk punching him.. its anger n frustrating loh.. here i am trying to patch tings up n there he is spoiling evrytink.. fyn lah! u wan tok wteva shyt up to u.. i gif up.. im sick n tired of u.. tis kinda friendship cnt last.. thn nxt is 2 tis guy hu made mi smile..hahaz..he's worth alot in my heart.. yikes! wt m i toking.. lols.. deb told mi bout tis third guy whom im nt mentioning.. i sorta ws shocked.. shivering loh.. hahaz i gt tis bad symtom of shivering whn im scared, afraid or shocked.. its onli whn tings happen tt we start to realize tt lyf is precious.. i heard tt she broke wid him.. muz b quite sumtink to take.. tmr i beta buck up n cheer her up.. butas muz make sure i dun sae e wrng ting.. my stupid mouth.. =x lalala.. im happy as long as his heart's wid mi..

2006-08-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

lalala..i felt s hapy ystd.. its whn he told mi tt.. thn i told him 2.. bt 2dae whn i heard frm jia jing sumtink, inside i knew sumtink ws sorta wrng.. mayb i cudnt take it or sumtink.. bt there's a load weighting on my heart.. whn we went bac 2 dnt rm, i decided to sleep to take it away frm my mind.. i hope tt tis tym i had nt choosen e wrng person.. bt whn we went out of skool n he asked tt if i ws home n tt he ws oso taking 28, sumhw i ws sort of lifted of the load.. he came lata wid his fren n sis i tink.. thn i ws lyk feeling hapy? hahaz bt deb n wu huan n iry all go bully mi.. iry gt fever s we wet a tissue n put on her head.. thn he forehead all red n her neck oso loh.. gt rashes.. thn whn we went up the bus ws lyk iry purposely sit another sit thn i sat alone.. rah! deb n wu huan purposely sat in frnt..evn more rah! thn his fren go push him.. argh!! i ws lyk blushing in2
tomato liao.. thn aft tt evn worse he goin down thn his fren go sae "monkey lyk u!" thn monkey turned bac n ws lyk making his fren.. ahahaz.. thn deb n wuhuan all laf loh.. urgh.. thn aft tt they went down again n tis tym his fren go sae " monkey rili lyk u!" thn monkey ws lyk lking at his fren.. both of us were lyk s embarrassed loh! wth.. dots.. lol tt made mi smile at last..haha! sry deb i din expect my wordz to affect u.. tts y i told u nt to get angry.. bt rili i ought to apologize cus i shudnt haf told u tt.. isnt it? hahaz bt nw gt monkey le.. xiexie ni de zhi chi! =P

2006-08-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

2dae went wid wq go eat cus deb n iry gt remedial..den aft tt we go find thm.. thn mr sim explained bout the aces dae tingy n wt we cn do to help e sec1,2 n 3s thn i helped in writing down e name 4 those hu wanna help sec 2 lah.. bt arh duno y i write e name n class all wrong de.. walao s ps loh i ws nt concerntrating on wt i did.. thn aft tt deb went 4 band n wq, mi n iry go buy bubbletea.. mi n wq bought samosa n iry bout chocolate waffle.. haix my nail broke e dae whn deb n i were goin to meet monkey.. cus i ws too impatient.. walao idiot lah.. nw damn regret cus my nail break s in thn i muz b careful if i hit my finger too hard pain sia.. thn aft tt we all wnt plaeground.. i jz luv e swing loh! sweet memories..hahaz.. thn we plaed blind mice n wq n i go bully iry.. we made her the blind mice..hehe.. thn poor iry ws lyk walking all around the plaeground trying to catch us..hahaz thn we went to the long pole tingy.. wt issit??? hmm i dunno wt its called..hahaz thn suddenly we spotted monkey n turkey n v shape coming in our direction.. thn they were lyk walk pass us.. thn we tot they goin away s we continued plaein again.. bt turned out they u turn bac.. thn i ws lyk.. omg hw cn tis happen? lol thn aft i scared wq wid my stupid story(which she rili ws pissed off) she demanded to go another place..haix.. my faultmyfault! stupid mouth lah alwaes sae wrng ting..hahaz i nvr tink 1.. bleah.. im hoping i ws e 1 in his nic..hahaz.. =P

2006-08-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

oh ya 2dae is wen qing's bdae n oso mateen's bdae.. if u all duno.. hmm s may i wish u all a happy birthdae n may ur dreams come true! hahaz.. wen qing i lk 4ward 2 c u tmr.. hahaz here comes e small bully! lol

2006-08-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

ysd ws national dae celebration at skool.. thn i ws actually nt on council duty.. bt nt enuf ppl thn ask mi to help.. haizz thn i stand at main gate dere wait 4 parents wid hwee min, kenny, anngie, nicholas and urhh oh shyt i 4got the name.. thn finally the parents came thn i went wid nicholas thn whn we walking i saw donkey.. he turn n thn gimme tt kuku smile (eeeeeee) thn i pretend nvr c nitink.. hahaz! thn we aft we send the parents we went bac bt no more parents came s we went 2 e hall.. thn we stand up there lk down.. s crowded sia.. thn kuku head sakshi (lol!) go push mi thn i accidentally hit joel.. (wtf?) thn i push sakshi thn she miss target.. haiyo! thn i went to the band area go find deb.. thn we perfect view ova monkey loh.. thn deb ws lyk "he suai meh?" lol thn we sing e national song! deb siao le loh whn we singing halfwae she suddenly sing s loud thn i ws lking at her.. lol! thn aft tt monkey saw mi! rah i went 4 shelter.. thn deb go sms him "*** ********** ** ****** ***?" thn he sae "** ***" arhhhhhhhhhh! momi i die.. thn lata we met bernard.. thn go eat prata.. we purposely dig a hole in his pocket loh! hoh ryt? haha my revenge 4 him calling mi si amanda.. bleah =P thn aft tt go drink bubbletea.. thn we went bac to skool.. phototaking.. hmm sakshi go put her leg on anissa's shoulder! tsktsktsk s chor lor.. hahaz thn she actually wanted to pull mi n wq's tie loh.. thn she drag until vry xin ku s she change style.. thn my tie tilted -_-... thn aft tt i went home wid deb n iry.. deb goin her ama house s we droping bout the same stop.. she one stop lata.. hahaz.. thn after tt whn i go home pray liao i went to bed n slept.. thn i ws woken up whn sum1 called mi.. hmm i 4get liao.. thn i went to sleep again thn finally deb sms mi.. "u woke up le mah?" thn ws lyk 4sumtink liao thn i chiong go bathe.. hahaz thn aft tt she ws lyk irritated.. sry hoh! hahaz whn we arrive we go plae maple thn deb died.. lol! thn we went onlyn thn we decided to flood ppl.. thn we go flood ahem n cheepeng thn cheepeng lyk huh? blur de.. thn he ask wt we doin thn i wanted to type we fighting bt cause deb n my hands r fighting to type den i type too fast thn com out "we fight4uiiii" lol hope he dun xiang wai.. thn at nyt i went to my tampines house.. wah i diok shock whn dad told mi he gimme the new hp.. YAY i s happy.. hpmm! bernard i gt my hp bac liao! haha u cnt suan mi! thn 2dae we went 4 tis sorta walk.. thn i saw noel..lol i rmb him as button boy hahaz.. thn aft tt walk we go eat prata thn we walk around n i saw jiamin! lol fri i wan ask her wear she stay.. thn we bought chai tou kuay n went bac home.. thn i at home slack lyk mad lyk go sleep thn whn i woke up we goin bac liao.. thn went home first ting i did ws sms wq happy bdae n bathe.. thn watch national dae show.. cnt wait 4 tmr! i goin out wid deb, iry, weilin, wen qing, jolene n wuhuan.. i tink.. hahaz! yawnz gonna sleep liao..

2006-08-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

ws lyk went wid my parents n aunt 4 tis kinda family activity.. bt quite fun lah.. cause rent car 1.. s i ws lyk in air con almost e whole dae.. lol.. thn we visited dif places.. at e end e best part of e tink ws tt we won a hp! lame lah.. bt funny sia my dad saes tt sumtyms lyf lyk whn u rili wan sth u get it.. lucky lah.. thn whn we won the prize my mom ws lyk screaming n thn i laf until i cry.. lol.. nowadaes no hyper moms lerh.. lol thn i lyk my aunt prefer to sit down n lac.. thn aft tt i quarreled wid my bro.. ws s damn pissed lah cause he accuse mi.. shyt lah.. thn we rode e car around.. thn at nyt we go eat one of my fav.. its lyk s long nvr eat le bt in the end i ws nt tt keen to eat it..duno y.. thn c my dad s happy i try to eat lyk s happy.. thn aft we eat liao my aunt had a lng tok wid mi.. thn i realized s many tings.. n i felt s guilty tt all tis while i had been s selfish without noein it..thn i went to e toilet to let it all out.. i finally changed my view of cing tings nw.. thn andric called.. thn he n his fren sccot i tink n i were lyk toking.. thn my stupid mouth lah.. let it out tt i wanna change char lerh.. thn andric ws lyk pestering.. urgh.. thn in the end i no choice bt tell him.. dunno lah monkey quite ok i tink.. bt i cnt confirm yet.. hahaz..

2006-08-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

hmm came bac to update blog liao.. i kena ban com cause i cheated e tym.. hehe.. thn my bro big mouth lah mei you bie de shi jiang den go sae mi.. walao eh his mouth pro sia.. even i oso cnt out tok him.. xiang ta xia gui! ystd gt duty.. thn i went wid deb we go eat first b4 i go home alone.. deb gt band den iry goin tm wid fren.. thn i took bus n saw her n her fren.. lol.. thn after tt i went bac to skool again.. gt the council duty.. sian lah muz wear long sleeve n court shoes bt apart frm tt, we get 2 stay until latelate.. s i luv it! hahaz.. thn i did the side gate duty wid anissa.. s borin loh.. thn she ws standing at 1 end thn i standing near the basketball court there.. thn alone gt nth to do.. thn after tt zhao wei n his fren came loh.. they plae basketball.. gt pa duty mah.. thn aft plaein zhao wei go wipe his sweat on my shirt loh! walao i ws s pissed.. the real owner of tis shirt suay lah.. gt zhao wei's sweat.. hahaz.. =X thn i saw the sun set! s beautiful sia lyk orange clouds all over.. thn nyt until nyt i still standin.. jiao suan lerh.. thn the stupid court shoes go cut my skin thn its lyk came off n vry pain.. urgh.. thn nyt tym ws lyk go makan.. i eat lyk 1 whole plate sia.. hungry! thn lata gt debriefing.. thn in the middle andric go call mi.. thn all the councilors lyk lk at mi.. ps lah.. thn aft tt went home.. ws lyk oredi 10 plus.. i ws scared loh bt *he smsed mi thn he gave mi a sense of courage.. lol thn on thursday.. monkey! walao he go sae" im s hamesome.. nvm.. i noe i ur type ryt.. dun need sae i noe liao.." lol i lyk diok shock hahaz.. thn deb go sae he vry ugly.. wear gt loh! rah.. lol.. i duno if i changing char nt.. i still cnt give up.. urgh.. heheheh.. 2dae went home econs lah.. i skipped guitar.. yay! thn i overslept s by the tym i reached ws oredi 8 sumtink.. thn aft tt went wid megan n pam go drink bubbletea.. thn pam n i tot we saw ****** wearing a ****.. hahaz!!! s funny! thn i walked all e wae 2 the bus stop.. the wind blow until my hair lyk siao liddat.. bt i lyk 2 spent tym reflecting.. bout e tings i did.. wt hd happened to mi.. m i gettin more n more selfish? in life dere r s many happenings.. i prefer to help those hu r in trouble.. cause whn u r the one giving urself advice, its harder to convince urself to do wt u tink.. nw im lyk waiting 4 a dae.. cnt wait! quickcome leh! hehe..

2006-07-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

haizz s long nvr post liao.. ta xiang wo dao qian lerh.. dan wo que si xin bu xiang yuan liang ta.. wo shi bu shi tai du le? i rili cnt stand s6 oredi loh.. vry sian lerh.. lyk alwaes tie zai wo sheng bian.. wo xiang zhen de fang xia quan bu.. hao hao ku le yi chang.. those hu dun haf alwaes wished dey haf n get s envious.. 4 mi, wts e use loh.. waste of energy onli sia.. den in such a short tym lyk evrytink went wrng 4 mi..sakshi, hannah n veera's outta peer.. i couldnt blif it.. its lyk after s lng tis is wt they get? den s6 suddenly started calling n smsing mi evrydae.. i felt lyk swapping phone wid deb or iry( e best).. im gettin s much stress nowadaes.. dere r s many tings i haven settled.. last tym whn deb had alll tis probs n i ws free frm tis, i tot tt it ws s easy to give her advice.. sae n she will do it.. bt it ws hard... i tried explaining to him.. bt he juz or geddit (or he is pretending?) i realize im running away frm evrytink.. i dun wanna face it..

2006-07-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

2dae ws lyk a riot.. say i suay lah..sit bside aliuddin thn ilyas threw e eraser pieces thn kena hit mi.. thn b4 i knew it i ws turning bac n scolding the f word.. =X thn after tt ilyas bingo hit aliuddin's head thn aliuddin lyk struggling wid his head.. half pain bt did nt scream n half wanting to laf.. n thn i laf lyk mad loh! laf until cnt stop.. 1st tym i felt s happy in 2b.. rah thn his mother wrote "dun call *** for nth. thank you" thn i ws lyk.. huh? yuan wang loh! nt mi call him is he disturb mi de! thn nvm lah.. i ignore.. sorta funny lah tings work... thn dunno wt i suddnly rmbed wt monster said.. i ws s damn confused loh! wt u mean huh? contradicting wid all e other ppl's words? thn after skool pam, deb, iry, mi go buy food.. thn we decided to eat prata.. thn juz as we lining up he came n thn iry n deb come sabo mi loh! make mi stand dere lyk statue liddat.. hahaz.. thn we go mama shop.. mi n iry shared the chocolate tingy! long lost memories! bout few yrs nvr eat tt chocolate liao.. blif it? hahaz.. thn we bought ice cream oso.. thn ate liao we walk all around while eating.. thn i saw sum1.. hum?.. wteva lah i jz casual toking onli.. hahaz.. thn went 2nd floor.. thn we practise guitar awhile lah.. thn during guitar lsn ws lyk s damn tired.. thn i dunno hw to plae oso anihw plae.. as lng as i fake plae cn le =) hahaz.. thn we got the song cant help falling in love.. its nice loh.. s far my two favs is tis n a whole new world.. thn went home.. finally! home sweet home! muackies (i need my sleep) =X

2006-07-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

lol s long nvr go blog liao.. juz dun haf the mood 2.. hahaz.. bt 2dae my spirits were lifted.. dunno y.. den stayed bac wid deb n iry.. gt the outside school patrol blahblah.. thn we walked to buy bubbletea (as usual).. or ya during lesson i ws lyk 4get to do my maths, chinese, art.. lyk siao loh.. go school go do.. thn lyk s despo 2 finish.. i found tt ppl does nt haf to show tt they r nt happy even if they r nt.. the onli ting is nt to affect others hu care bout u.. hahaz.. thn ws lyk whn i heard frm deb sumtink..surprisingly, i shud b down.. bt i ws nt.. i felt lyk too relax 4 norm? lol.. thn after we bought bubbletea ws lyk went back.. i bought skittles 4 my bro.. =] thn went bac to lk 4 hongzuo cause we doing outside school patrol 2gether.. thn deb n iry go the usual place while mi n hongzuo go do duty.. thn went to buy bubbletea.. again?! tt uncle loh! he kept giving mi n hongzuo tt kinda weird lk.. urgh.. thn we walked all around pass the police post n ngee ann sec.. lyk 1 big round sia.. lol.. thn whn we arrived bac i ran to meet deb n iry.. thn guess wt? they actually wrote sumtink.. rah! thn i we went down lah.. thn dunno the 2h guy call joel i tink.. he said "jian si bu jiu or sumtink.." lol i 4get liao.. thn i ws lyk.. whn did he almost die huh? y he sae liddat? thn last tym dunno wt he go sae i frm saudi arabia.. argh! dun care him lah..

2006-07-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

went to eat instant noodles 2dae.. deb ws hopin 2 c bugy! bt in the end after eating which left our lips all red and swollen, we saw blahblahblah.. thn i ws lyk omgomg wt the toot! thn went quickly thn after tt deb went to band thn iry n me went to her classrm.. thn i ws lyk bored thn we go change to pe.. thn after tt still bored i sit outside.. i luv sitting outside! bt iry wanted tt artificial wind s we moved into her class n sat in frnt of the fan.. lol thn i ws lyk wah.. wan sleep liddat.. bt in the end my daze kena woke by iry.. lol.. thn went to guitar.. ws lyk bored loh.. we kena trained by tis two guys one whom i dun rili lyk.. cause i lost my pick thn all he said ws aiya nvm lah u wan i give u money buy.. as if its s easy to find loh.. he made it sound lyk money cn buy everytink liddat.. stupid loh.. s wt if u rich? i wanna scold loh.. bt nvm.. dun waste energy on stupid guyz.. thn i ws lyk sad bout my pick.. pathetic sia.. thn we tried the strumming method thn i ws pressing the string s hard my fingers all red n gt tt mark.. lol thn after tt my skin hardened n thn i had to peel it off.. lol.. thn stupid loh sum1 reminded mi of sumtink thn b4 i knew it, i ws crying.. thn s ps i had to excuse myself cause at tt tym we training guitar wid sum1 else.. thn i came bac juz on tym when everyone finish thn whn me n iry walking, suddenly again tears flow.. wtf loh wt happen to mi? thn saw deb thn we waited at the canteen 4 her eating cheezels.. thn deb came n thn we went bac.. thn they all kept saeing..urgh.. nvm.. gtg bb..

2006-07-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

ok.. i ws washing my hair whn i tuged at tis hair n when i lked, omg loh.. one strand of half white half black hair!!! argh noooooo! white hair..i cn die..haizz nvm.. thn 2dae went wid deb n pam n iry go tam mart.. thn i ate fries.. again?! i cn grow fat.. lol.. thn went to buy bubble tea.. urgh deb lah... i wan buy coffee she make mi buy mocha..n y? cause she wan try mocha.. blahblah.. thn after she bought she added 50cents to my money cause mocha more expensive.. n i s damn regret! mocha ws horrible.. haizz nvm.. i prefer the can one..thn lata went bac to school n i saw ahem.. deb's bugy! ok at 1st i cnt c clearly without my specs cause he opposite.. bt lata i saw lah.. hmm ws wid iry at the 3rd floor bench thn she suddenly deodorant mood.. omg? she sprayed on mi when i drinking the drink loh.. thn i ws lyk tot i tasted deodorant.. wteva.. thn we all fight thn her santa came.. lol.. thn she ws shocked! lol thn we all sit there tok.. thn suddenly, one side i saw her santa.. thn i said dun turn bac! thn she oso said dun turn bac! bt she go turn bac n saw santa.. thn i ws lyk nooooooo! thn she sae behind u! thn i turn bac.. thn ok.. her face ws red bt i dunno bout mine.. cause lyk when i saw i lyk no expression loh.. empty? lol i ws shocked wid my reaction.. bt nice job.. hahaha.. thn we go home.. s boring.. urgh..bt nvm tmr sure gt sumtink on 1..yay!

2006-07-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

2dae is cross country run.. at first tot i cud make it early 4 the first tym since i alwae makes ppl wait.. bt then i 4got to bring my sports official tee.. then went back home to get.. thn late.. when i arrived ws lyk deb n iry all there oredi.. thn we go change and clean up n blahblah.. thn when we almost went to 7 eleven there, then i tot i heard andric.. thn i turned.. thn rili leh..eh he came frm where de huh? wteva.. thn we go buy tings thn andric asked deb if she ws going to cross country.. thn he ws sorta shocked when he heard she ws goin.. he said.. lata will b vry tired one.. lyk warning her liddat.. thn i ws tinking.. if she dun mind thn y sae? thn nvm.. thn went take bus go pasir ris park.. thn when we arrived ws lyk somewhat late.. cause we r indeed late bt alot of ppl oso haven come.. thn we stationed ourselves.. iry recorder.. thn doing wid her.. thn mi n deb station at the place tat she tink gt alot of wind.. bt turned out to b reversed cause the sun ws so hot n there ws little shade.. thn nvm lah we slack first loh.. thn after tat the tchers come thn we lyk hyper sia.. we actually performed a "dance" lol thn after tat we toking bout erm sumtink.. (anr) lol.. thn we both lyk 1,2,3 wah! lol thn the c division boys came.. thn i ws lyk teasing deb.. blahblahblah.. thn tats when our enthu died down cause we dare nt dance in frnt of guys in particular.. hahaz.. thn after tat b division guyz.. thn i felt lyk vomiting.. thn after tat c division gerlz.. thn our dead enthusiamz carried on.. when the b division gerlz came liao we still lyk no enthusiasm.. then after the last one went we were lyk slack.. thn i ly on the floor hahaz.. thn after tat we went toilet thn everyone gather liao.. thn mi n deb n pam walking thn pam whispered to deb sumtink thn i tot wt.. thn nvm lah i ignore.. thn after tat go pick litter.. thn after tat we ate the chocolate bread or cake or wteva.. thn we went to the flags area thn deb held tis flag.. hahaz thn after tat saw pam's bros.. hmm..nvm.. thn after tat we went simei eat.. thn we ate kfc.. thn i teased deb again! yay! lol thn after tat deb go dirty her shirt n pants.. lol ahahahaha.. so clumsy.. tsktsk.. thn went walk around 4 awhile.. thn the hamsters s cute! nxt everyone bought ice cream.. thn after tat walked wid deb to the other bus stop.. thn after she left mi n iry were lyk waiting there for the bus.. thn he smsed mi " wan go out watch movies?" thn i ws lyk shocked.. omg i told him i nt free le loh.. thn nvm mi n iry continued 2 tok.. i dunno.. i felt tat he's alwaes gt tis sumwhat lost lk in his eyes.. its lyk in a daze or he tinking of sumtink liddat.. lol.. s nvm lah..

2006-06-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

im s damn pissed. cnt actually blif tat such a ppl existed.he tried asking mi out 4 movies.. i told him i ws buzy.. thn he told mi sae cn go my house to plae. i ws lyk tinking "wtf? i oredi told u i nt free u still s damn idiot dun give up?" thn i told him u want die arh?my grandma dun allow anione to come into my house.. thn he sae lol if i die i kill u first.. wtf loh.. im pissed pissed pissed pissed pissed n nth cn b more pissing to tis.. thn the dae b4 he go sms mi "hey piggy.. pokepoke. next tym muz take pic of u sleeping in less den ur pj." f**king b**tard.. thn he lata sms sae " the first message ws part of a "compliment" 4 u.. urgh anger.. nvm im nt caring bout tis.. yay 2dae went wid deb n iry go eat macs thn deb told mi gt tis guy lking at her thn suddenly he smiled.. lol thn i sae he kind wt.. thn lata i took back my words.. lol.. thn i buying food tat tym the guy hu smiled at deb the fren ws lyk sneaked up behind me.. n thn whn he tok i ws lyk diok shock.. cause when i turn back his head was lyk bent s low tat it cn almost lean over my shoulder..urgh then i moved.. thn after tat he did it again wid his head thn i moved further.. thn after tt i carried the food thn he lyk purposely go block the wae thn his fren ask him to move away thn he move.. thn wt happen lata when we eating i dun wanna tok bout it.. thn we go buy deodorant.. hey i wan a deodorant war! we decided to haf one tmr.. thn lata went home thn i plae com thn went back to school 4 the meet the parents tingy 4 sec 3, 4.. thn lucky i nt late sia thn went to the council s called storeroom to change.. thn khairul s impatient go knock knock knock.. wteva.. thn after tat we divided the work thn i ws at the registration counter.. yay! wah sit down there s comfortable sia cn slack.. thn the parents started to pile in thn iffah the most efficient one..=) at first she kept singing thn i sorta irritated bt lata i gt used to it thn it sounded nice.. hahaz.. thn we all after a long tiring sitting all day, we went 4 break.. thn we went to the all get food thn my leg gt blister s i walk lyk duck liddat.. thn lata mr sim go sae" im nt telling u hu issit bt she got her food thn walked liddat.." thn he go demo loh! thn iffah lafed lyk mad (she knew it ws mi) lol.. thn after tat went home loh.. tmr x-country run.. haizz gtg sleep le.. bb

2006-06-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

went 2 school 2dae 2 do project.. den arrived late.. kelly n jolene lyk sitting there toking.. den i realized we dun have the file at all.. hahaz thn decided 2 borrow laptop bt kelly kept saein go eat 1st thn we go toilet thn go eat.. thn went to the mama shop thn in the end we stand there debate wt 2 eat.. instant noodles or chicken rice? thn finally decided on chicken rice.. thn we go the coffeeshop bt thn none of us ate chicken rice loh.. jolene ate the wanton noodles thn i eat minced meat noodle thn kelly ate the fried chicken wid the noodles lah.. thn i picked out the pig liver(urgh) n the fats(omg) thn i only ate the non-fatty meat n noodles hahaz jolene said muz all juz order noodle.. (if onli i cud lah) thn we all finished thn waiting 4 kelly when tis lady asked whether ani1 sitting thn we sae no thn she sat down..thn she asked kelly when the school holidae finished cause kelly sitting the nearest mah.. thn kelly said 26 june.. thn the lady said ok thn kelly ate n ate until she couldnt take it.. it ws too oily.. thn she pushed her plate away thn the lady saw n said: "why u dun eat? dun waste food.. hw much u buy? $2.50 arh? arh eat.." thn kelly no choice eat loh.. 2 b continued